31st Dec 2009...
The last day of 2009...
Before I say something about crossing this year...I would like to update some things...

The last entry was typed at Pinang...where I was complaining about not having my holiday...well...Im glad now that I didn't quit that time...The youth camp "Who Are You?" was a hit...4 dayz 3 nitez of special time at Sufes Campsite, Tapah...I went there for 2 times already...This was the 3rd...So many memories there at Tapah...So many bond made there at Tapah...not to mention so many blood lost there at Tapah (cute little leeches)...This time wasn't any different from the last few times I went there...New bonds were made...New memories in my heart...Fortunately no blood was lost...But I've got a kick at the head thanks to my bro, Dao Yi...Left me with a bongkak juz above my eyes...My image was spoiled bcuz of the drama thanks to Shi Yang...hehe...But it was worth it...everything was worth it...I felt God's grace during the last 4 dayz...I felt Him making us grow...nurturing us...watering us...shining upon us...
Spent some time talking with the Pavillion Bros at the last nite...well...not some time...We spent half of the nite talking about our feelings for the camp...I've learnt some special things of a few ppl at the camp as well...It was worth it for not sleeping until 5am...
A new breakthrough was made at this camp as well...for me...for some others...Praising the Lord...and worshiping Him...in a new way...The first time...I really looked forward to praise Him...I love the feeling of singing out the beautiful words...listen to what the music wants to tell us...

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt...
Who am I, that the bright and morning star would choose to light the way, for my ever wandering heart...
Not because of who I am...
But because of what You've done...
Not because of what I've done...
But because of who You are...
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still You,
Hear me when Im calling,
Lord you catch me when Im falling,
And You told me who I am,
Im Yours.

"Who Are You?" Youth Camp theme song...

I love the sermon given by Pastor Lee Kim Fok also...His great sense of humor and talent of speaking the Lord's word let me know more about myself...Somehow I felt God speaking to me...Some words really hit the bottom of my heart...Those words became encouragement for me to serve Him...to continue to serve Him...
I feel so small...compared to Him...we are not bigger and the smallest seed...yet He listens to us...speaks to us...nurtures us...and cures broken heart...

Words cannot express my feeling right now...
Said goodbye to quite alot of things...
Goodbye to the seniors in our skul band...
Goodbye to J3F best classmates...
Goodbye to the ones leaving Agape...
Goodbye to junior life...
Goodbye to those who joined the "Who Are You?" camp...
And after 12 o'clock...
Going to say goodbye to 2009...

I step into the year or 2009 in a prayer...
I now remember I was praying when I was crossing into this year...
I asked God...for more faith in Him...for the wisdom and strength I need for my exam...I wanted more power, talents, and become stronger...Now when I looked back of wad I have came through on the last day of this year...I see myself smaller...thinking smaller...size smaller...having smaller...Last day of this year...I see myself different than before...Asking for different things...Having different things...Thinking different things...

Crossing into a new year in a new feeling~!
Excited to step into it...
Now I know wad to ask for...
I hope that will come for me...




Watchnight service tonight!!!
Stepping into a new year...Not being crazy with the whole lots shouting out the seconds left to the new decade...but praying for the new year...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
2010!!! HERE I COME!!!

Finally reached Pinang~!
First nite here...not staying at Shi Yang's first...Stayed at Dad's tonite...Maybe we should have some more family time...
Some more holiday...

But work found his seat on the bus with me here...or maybe I brought it here...
The concert over...now here's the camp...There's always things to do...Sometime even the things that wasn't meant for me to do...ended up here...Tired tired tired...




I wan my HOLIDAY~!




Nice view here...from 19th floor I can see quite alot of things...but not at nite...
Feeling sleepy now...Tired tired tired...

Typed this blog in Shi Yang's house...
Me, Joshua, another Joshua, Shi Yang, Dao Yi, and Tze Ee are staying over at Shi Yang's house...
I won't list out the activities we had done...Bcuz some are maybe a bit too crazy...



So...
The 1812 concert is finally over...My heart felt lighter...ONLY a bit...When I found out that I still nidda type out the things for camp...*sigh*
All my dreams of sleeping tru the week is gone...
I feel so tired...Where is my holiday...?



7 dayz to camp~!
3 dayz to Christmas~!
9 dayz to 2010~!

ZZzzzzz....I need my holiday~~~

Got sicked at training camp...Think maybe it's bcuz of the smoke they put at the grave...I don't understand why?! I always hated them doing that...Cuz whenever I got near to those places...My throat turns itchy...then the pain comes...sometimes if worse...asthma attack...haiyo~

Anyway...
Last nite...went to check my UEC exam result...I was soooooooo nervous that time...it was kinda weird...Cuz I wasn't really prepared...I didn't know that last nite(15th Dec) the results will come out...It was suppose to be 16th...means today...Something extraordinary happened before I was told that we can check our results that time...I was praying...kneeling by my bed...After I said "amen" and went back to my laptop...Trish suddenly msn me and told me that we can check our results already...and gave me the link rite there rite then...my laptop was playing "The Adventures of Professor Alex" that time...making the atmosphere even more exciting...I was like...WOW...It was only like yesterday when I took the exam...and now I need to face my own result...I clicked the link...typed in my IC no. & candidate no. (which I almost forgot...thank goodness I kept my exam pass)...The page didn't need much waiting...it almost came out immediately...I closed my eyes immediately and waited...I was waiting for the music to reach the peak and see at my result...lolx...I lost my mind back then...XD
SO....opened eyes...shocked to see...that my result was juz wad I suspected......
Here's the result:
Chinese:::B (sure wan la...no doubt)
BM:::B (this is oso quite sure...I wasn't really good at it since primary)
English:::A (100% sure)
Math:::B (oso 100% sure...I was lucky I didn't get C for it)
Science:::A (This was surprising...XD)
History:::A (Thanks to the beautiful history teacher we got this year...wakaka)
Geography:::A (God blessed me on this subject...)

So...4 A's 3 B's...
Okok only...not as bad as others...oso not as good as others too...
Now...No talking about exam until next year =)




Today...went to church for the drama practice...went there the earliest...cuz grandpa and grandma nidda go out early...Good thing there wasn't any traffic jam...or else if would be my fault grandpa late for work =p
Now...this drama was quite special...interesting...fun...meaningful...fun...crazy...creative...fun...I said "fun" three times == Cuz it's really fun!!! Won't put out the story here...Don't wanna spoil the suprise...Juz bcuz of the ghost that will taunt you for the 4 days of your camp coming out our the box to the right...hehehe...
So...our drama team this time quite small...making us faster to practice (except for some parts tat are really really really funny and we can't stop ourselves from laughing that somehow looks not funny at all or juz simply laugh...mainly the simply laugh would be me)...
The team is:::
Shi Yang ::: as director/writer/background music/actor (oldest brother)
Dao Yi ::: as artist/actor (imaginative person...mostly acting as animals XDXD)
Yi Xuan ::: as artist/actor (second oldest brother)
Dorcas ::: as actor (youngest sister)
Grace ::: as actor (imaginative person...and a very cool character which I can't say now...)
Me ::: as half-day artist (didn't help out much on the things...but I did coloured some things today...)/actor (imaginative person...starting as a cool person...slowly turning into something ridiculous and disgusting...u'll get wad I mean when you watched the drama)
Soo....the team is quite good...the drama is cool...and we can have fun during the drama...
Juz love the feeling of the stage lights shining on me...XD





Tomoro competition ah~~~!
Juz went up to first for only not more than a month...
Then want me to 1 on 1...T.T
I rather die now...and more...body juz recovering from sick...no more breath to use for playing my clarinet...walaowei....
Juz hope I can die beautifully...not hard...

It's been really crazy around these dayz...
My life's crazy...
Systems crazy...
World has gone crazy...
Crazy crazy crazy...
I feel so fuzzed...chaotic...and tired as well...
I wanna have a real holiday...
Maybe a trip to the beach...and juz lie one the warm sands enjoying sun bathing...
Maybe a trip to the waterfalls...and juz let the cooling waters touch my body...
Maybe a trip to the mountains...and juz look at the wonderful creations of God...
Or...
Maybe a whole week...doing nth...but eat...drink...sleep...play...and do business...
I need a real holiday...



12/12/09~14/12/09::::Skul Band Training Camp:::: Not at home from....today....til....monday nite....Blog won't be updated until my return...XD
Now...
I can sleep...

Reality is cruel...
N sometimes I hate facing it...
Why must I bother myself with the future???
I should be living with no worries...juz being a simple kid who goes to schools and attend church every sunday...
Now I regret the choice I've made of not going to Pinang...not going to live with dad...not following him...but instead...I chose to stay back...and not decided to not leave my safety zone and stay away from the unknown...now the unknown found me...
Dad decided to come back for us...
I felt bad for letting him stay so far away from us juz to work and make money for our daily life...
He says he needs to be with us...so tat he can influence us...and to be like a father...
Im so selfish...When I said to dad that I decided to stay here...That would have broken his heart...Im really proud to call him my dad...

Really need to pray for him.......

Now that he have resigned his job...
He is going to be a jobless person starting from 2010...
He can't find any at the moment...
But we'll put all of our faith in God...tats wad we should do...




16th Dec 2009...will get the results of UEC exam...nervous...excited...scared...pressure...happy...sad...angry...digusted...tons of feelings crossing around...juz hope I don't break down on that day...
20th Dec 2009...will get the results of PMR exam...pretty weird for getting the results this late...even more late than the UEC exam...took PMR before taking UEC...but now...UEC results come out earlier than PMR...bit anxious to see my results tho...




It's autumn I think~

Y when everytime I wanna post something nice about TODAY...the time seems to skipped to 11.59pm...Then when I post everything turned to yesterday's stuff...Gosh...don't care...still 9th Dec 2009...

So...Whole day not at home...
Where did I went???
I went to KLCC...
Went there for concert...
And oso the science center...
Quite fun...wif the english Youths...They're really crazy sometimes...
Okay...whole day went like this......
Aunty Doreen took us to church...Then after gathering with the others we went to a mamak near MBS (Malaysia Bible School...should be like tat XD) to get some lunch...fill up our stomach then hit the road to Access 2...PJ...parked the car there...then took the Monorail directly to KLCC...We took the monorail instead of driving all the way there to avoid the traffic (will keep tat in mind)...After we reached KLCC...we headed directly to Petronas Science Center....which we arrived a bit earlier...our tickets bought is suppose to be 3.30pm...we were there 1 hour earlier...nice...so we went to jalan jalan...split into some groups...some went window shopping...some went to bookstore (me)...some really went jalan jalan...I bought a book (Chronicles of Gregor. Last book) which I was looking for quite some time...the bookstore's name was quite funny...wad was it agn??? Kinokuniya or something...Alyssa pronounced into Kinokuniama......
Sooooo...
Science center...touch this touch that...see this see tat...whole lots of things...lazy to type all specific details out...I did remember I smelled some ancient air...which was really dizzying...and weird...
After science center...Went for a light dinner...Macdonalds agn...haize....After the light dinner...me dorcas and bro went to the hall earlier to buy tickets for another concert...Took some time finding the box office...but ended up not buying anything instead we collected a phone number...clever counter...saved alot of time and energy...
Then finally...we went in the hall for some music...Dorcas' shoe can't pass...Kelvin's oso...lolx...
The performers were brilliant...but the listeners ain't really good...some even hum to the song...some more cough in the middle of a slow and quiet song...wanna box him in the face...Oh ya...we forgot to yell encore...which made their sudden leaving from the stage...and coming back a bit weird...okay...really weird...They got a violinist...guitarist...trombone...double bass...pianist...banjo oso i think...and drum set...nice band and excellent music...it was enjoyable and relaxing...
After tat...we all went back to Access 2...to get some dinner...We all were like...wearing formal clothing walking into the hawker market...so stand out...I was all black today...eessh...
Dinner finished...went straight back to church...Then mom fetched us...then reached home...now...sitting in front of the laptop typing this little post out...

Nice day trip...
1 more thing I learnt today...
The english youths are more...together...I mean...they are ALL together...not like us...a pair there...then powerpuff girls over there...backstreet boys here...different gangs...groups...cliche...form within us...We are not ONE...
This is a target that our youths should be heading...
No matter wad time our gathering is now...
No matter how much ppl we have now...
No matter wad condition we're in...
We are still a fellowship...
It really doesn't matter if our time is shorten...Why should we be thinking about how long we want the time to be...We should be thinking how should we be using the time that is now shorter...Efficiency...This is a word we should all learn today...Getting the best result in the shortest time...be efficient...Even tho now our gathering is combined wif the little kids...I mean...I couldn't accept that at first...but...that ain't a problem...it's actually a solution...wad more could be done...??? Continue in the same way and face more problems??? or go the other not so comfortable way to get more solution...We should be thinking about other problems now...like how to break up the bond between different cliches and gangs...like how to become more like a fellowship...revolution must be made...



*Plz...anyone...out there...who has time and money....Plz...contact me at 016-3135613 to get the ticket to Hin Hua High Skul Windband combined concert at 18th Dec...together performing with special guest from Singapore, Nan Yan Junior College...and Johor, Cheong Cheng...Plz...anyone...support us with ur time and money...we return u with the beauty of music...and relaxing tones...RM10 for each...no special discounts!*




Nite nite~

I waited 5 mins for this little window to load finish...
Why is the traffic still so jammed at this kinda time!!!
SOOOOoooooo lagggggg.....
I hate it when it lags....
I was about to wish Shao Wei happy birthday de...before the day ends...when the com started to lag....haiz....
Haiz...
Shao Wei...
Late wishes...
Happy Birthday...
SOoo lucky we ain't going to skul to buy books yesterday...(past midnite...8th Dec today)

Bloggy...haven't touched u for a few dayz...busy...is all i can say...
Not in the mood of updating now...
Maybe Im too exhausted...
Think I'll update next time...



*Going to MPO at WED!!! Excited to see our own country's orchestra!!!

Not coming on to blog often these few days...
Skul band practice gets more and more tiresome...
Both physical and mental strength is losing...
Haiz~

Skul band practice...
Pretty sums it up for wad I've been doing the few dayz back...
In the end...
My teeth kinda moved...moved back to where I started to get my bracelets...I wasted the effort of the bracelet in a few days of practices...the bracelet used 2 months to pull it in...and juz puff...my teeth went back to where it started...
Dang...now I scare my bracelets can only be taken down after I graduate...

The camp progress is...well...acceptable...
Finally...I can hear the new drama's storyline we will be doing at the camp...Nice~
Last nite went for the meeting...
I don't think we are really good at time control...
We should actually start the meeting at 8pm...but we all were late...and it only started at 8.30pm...bad...
We should be able to finish all things that are needed to be discussed by 10pm...actually 2 hours is already quite long time...I hate long meetings...bad oso...
This is a serious problem...with no efficiency...how can we serve God betta??? I mean...we shouldn't be wasting time running in circles...This is God's work we're talking about...no child play here...
What is a meeting actually??? A meeting...is actually a time when we all gather around...and SHOW our progress...DISCUSS on serious matters that needed everyones opinion...and NOT...DOING all the work at the meeting...THINKING about what you wanna do...TALKING rubbish...RUNNING IN CIRCLES...
Hate to say this...but...I really think that our AJK this time isn't really organized...our meetings aren't conducted according to the agenda...We were discussing things randomly...what comes in our mind we juz shoot out...well.......IT'S DAMN HARD TO RECORD DOWN THINGS WHEN THE THINGS JUZ FLY AROUND...It's really frustrating doing the meeting reports for this...A whole long meeting of 3 hours (our meeting started 8.30pm...ended 11pm)...and the meeting report is somehow not full like our time used...EFFICIENCY...we need to be fast and productive...We should be energetic when doing God's work...I believe God put us together for a purpose...I myself learnt some things...I trust that others must have gained some experience...



Will be pianist for the whole day this sunday...Wah...About 16 songs to practice...10 camp songs...6 others for the service...It's good to be back serving the Lord!!!

Last nite didn't come to my blog to update...
Bcuz I accidentally drank pear+orange juice...But the main guilty fruit is pear...
I nvr heard anyone allergic to fruits...
Fruits should be nice to everyone...
We should actually eat it everyday...
But my body seems to don't work that way...
Only to pears........

It was a painful experience...And I nvr wanna go tru that agn...
I know most have tried having their stomach full of air...Full like a balloon...
Well...
That's wad happened when I drank that juice down to my stomach...
In not more than 10 mins...
It was filled up...
And stayed that way...for...about...2 hours I think...
The pain grew gradually...slowly...
I was like...Oooo...Ahhh....then collapsed...
Forced myself to drink hot water...no use...
Went to toilet...no use...
Bath in hot water....no use...
Lie on my bed...more pain...
Play games to distract myself...Couldn't play it attentively...
Use heater to heat up my stomach...Need another bath...
Then I thought of going to the emergency center...But then it would juz be a waste of time...Since they'll only ask you to sit there then wait for the air to come out itself...
Then that's wad I've done...
Lie on my bed...
Concentrating on my daydream...
Trying to sleep in anyway...I even tried counting sheeps...LOL
Eventually and luckily...
I ended up in dreamland...Zzz
So this is the adventure of Joseph eating pears...




1812 is nearing...
Excited...
My flying notes...haiz...

Really tired from church today...
Even though not doing anything today...but...I felt tired...
Learnt some PA skills...Next time wanna be sitting at the back...tuning the volume...fixing the mic...taking some naps...XD
It will be good for my ear training oso...I can hear some little tiny voice that the person who is teaching me can't...Cool....Maybe tatz wad u get when u join the band...
Fun in the PA room...but...stand through the whole service...Wow...After that...My legs was wobling...like jelly....

Agape...
Phew...........
Really need some makeovers...
It needs a restart...
Revolution...
Renew...
Upgrade...
Organize...
Efficiency...
Youth spirit!!!
And most...
The presence of God...
Tatz wad we need...
Today's activity...well...The sharing was really really interesting...2V...Verify...Velidate...Sien Lerk thought us why...and how...should we find out the truth of the information we receive nowadays...
Well...REALLY useful in our lives...great lesson indeed...BUT...only about 10++ little cats (including me) attended this fruitful event...Oh ya...not to mention last week...GAMES...oso...the people attended was only 10++...Where are all the young energetic youths!!! WE SHOULD BE RUNNING THIS PLACE!!!
Speaking of running...
phew...............
At year start...things was quite OK....
Slowly...and gradually throughout the year...
Ppl starts to get missing...
P&W starts to get messy...
No one seems to care for the new comers...
Exams starts to come...
Empty seats starts to emerge...
Well...It's 30th November...
And wow...Ain't this a riot party!
When I got to church this morning...Someone suddenly came and told me that Im the P&W ldr for today...
O.o
Who made the table out and didn't go and tell the next person in advance!?
Somemore I need to go for meeting...Can't even put up a team for P&W...
Good thing there's Xiao Ern to save the day...
Asked her to help....then helped her to find songs...find LCD...find computer...find pianist...
Phew...............
Well...
After I join the committee...
Revolution time...



The age of long and hard band practice has finally reached...
Hope my lips will survive...

It's been a real fruitful day...or should I say stomach-full day...
Granpa took all of us to Bukit Jugra...Somewhere at Banting...
The "Beggar's Restauran" isn't really wad I've expected...
Granpa said that it's really hard to book a table there...
They are full everyday...
So...I thought they would be quite...up to speed with their popularity...
They weren't.....
The restaurant is basically made of wood and planks...
It's located in somewhere far from the city...
Up on the hill...
With lovely nature around it...
It ain't "airconded" oso...
Granpa said that when he first went there to eat...There aren't proper tables there!!! The tables back then was made outta wood...Made by THEMSELVES...Their chairs as well...We were lucky to be enjoying our lunch on a solid table...laying back on a plastic chair...
Now to the point...
Food...
Beggar's Chicken...
Beggar's Pork...
Beggar's Pork intestine...
Soup of Eternal life...
Above is the menu of our lunch today...
And some other lala zaza...
The chicken is...INDESCRIBABLE DELICIOUS...
The pork...and the intestine...and the soup...is oso...MMmm...MMmm..Mmmmm....
We didn't waste our 1 hour trip to travel to that place....juz to taste the delicious...
It's worth it...is all I can say...

Our trip to Banting didn't stop there...
We oso went to a beach...Which we don't know...Found that place by accident...
The sand was smooth and clean...
The environment isn't really polluted...
Quite nice beach...Muz be a newly developed beach...
Hope it stays that pretty...

Then...
On our way home...
We stopped at a kopitiam...
It's runned by a fren of our family...
His coffee...Oso...MMmmmm....



X= Tan Xun...My cousin brother
B=Boss...the person running the kopitiam...

Grandma: Who wans coffee??!!
Sis & Cousin sis & Bro: I wan!!!
X: I oso wan!!!
*Grandma starts to count...*
X: Wait!!! What coffee izit???
B: Black coffee...very nice de!!!
X: huh....I wan white coffee leh...got white coffee or not???
B: Wad? White coffee??? Not nice de la...They are tasteless...Cannot win my black coffee...Cooked the beans by myself de ah...Muz try...Then u'll c...White coffee no use...Black coffee betta!!!
X: Huh....?? I think I wan soya bean la grandma...

Like the boss said...His black coffee definately left it's smell in my mind till now...I can't forget the sips of sweet and delicious coffee dancing on my tongue...
My sense of taste went to heaven today...



Sis finally got her handphone...*The day suddenly turns dark...wait...it's already midnite...*
Why...???
Why...?????!!!!!
The first phone she gets is a thousand...million...billion...betta than mine...
So...you might ask...why did she get it???
Actually...it's Granpa (father side...not the one who brought us to banting) who gave her the HP...for rewarding her of getting into 6M...
*sobs*
How come I nvr get this kind of treatment...
Im serious...
My heart is really...hurted...by this act...
Haiz...
Wad else can I do but to live with it...
Sometimes life is juz this unfair...
Real unfair...
Really really very unfair...



Tmr...wait...it's 12 already...
Gonna be the pianist for the choir performance later...about 10 more hours I think...
*sigh*
It's been long time since I played for the choir...
It's a comeback for me...Hope I won't throw this...




I hate the unfairness in this world...
Even though I should be looking at what I have and not looking at what others have...
But I feel this...disturbing...
It juz ain't....fair...

Gosh...
Gt a real stomach ache last nite...
Suddenly woke up in pain...and in confusion...
It's like someone poisoned me or something...
The whole world feels like spinning...
And my tummy feels like exploding...
I almost threw out...I think...
I feel like waking up in a nightmare (I was in another dream before the stomach ache hit me)...
Dreamland and reality got mixed up...
I don't know if it's a dream...or I juz probably ate the wrong thing before sleeping...

After 5 or 10 mins of agony and pain...
I flew back to dreamland...
LOL...



Today's band practice quite well...except for my lips hurting again...The bracelets kinda made a mark inside...4 holes...for 4 teeth's metal thingy...dunno wad is it called...Sooo....Coach didn't come...Dunno why...Yan Shi took his place of leading us through the practice...Very very joker style...Ask and answers herself sometimes...Funny...
I finally got the chance of playing the whole batman...Nickname for the song...Forgotten it's real full name...Haa...Paid 4 holes in my mouth for this song...Ouch...



Got to the airport (LCCT) wif mum juz now to pick up dad...Poor dad...Car crashed...Still in factory...N now the insurance says ain't gonna pay for all of it...Lame la...Still fighting to get the money needed to fix his car...Poor dad...SOoo...It's practically snoring time when we came back from the airport...1am in the early morning...or nite...wadever...Still...the traffic is quite...busy...There is still MUCH life out in the streets...I thought it's suppose to be bedtime...Everyone should have eaten their milk and cookie...brushed their teeth...listened to their bedtime story...and ran to dreamland...WHY IS EVERYBODY STILL OUTSIDE MAKING POLLUTION??? Me??? At least Im seating here in front of my laptop typing this post and not out there driving around to play...Well...Maybe everyone needa go out and pick up their dad from the airport or something...Coincidence??? I don't think soo....



Tomoro...Granpa is gonna take us out for lunch..."Beggar's Restoran"...Nice name don't you think? Granpa says it's real hard to get a seat...Especially on public holidays...U nidda book it weeks before...and you nidda be there on time or if you're late...your seat will be taken...Should be real nice...Since it's so popular...Hope I won't wake up in another round of stomach ache for that...



Commercial time...
1812 Concert!!!
18th December 2009!!!
Concert by Hin Hua High School Wind Band, Singapore Nan Yang Junior College, and Malaysia Cheong Cheng Johor Bahru...
Tickets now selling starting 30th November at the price of RM 10 each!!!



Time to visit dreamland...

Found myself staring blankly at my laptop again...
Found myself doing nothing in front of my laptop again...
I can go to sleep...
But I don't feel like it...
I feel like doing things...that doesn't mean anything...like writing this meaningless post...
I feel like...
Nothing...
My mind feels numb...unable to produce useful thoughts...
It ain't telling me..."Go to sleep"
It ain't telling me anything at all...
But there's one little voice in my head...
Small yet powerful enough to make my fingers hit and move on the keyboard...
Little yet smart enough to make out words...
I am in auto-mode...
Auto guided by the little voice...
Whereas the big parts of my mind is currently in standby mode...
Waiting...to get me to sleep...
Readying...to put on the weights on my eyelids...
Preparing...to shut down the little voice...
I remember this little voice...
This little fella helped me in various obstacles...
What? How? When? Why?
The book report on "Phantom of the Opera" that was writen by me in some day back then, in the middle of the nite juz like this...This little voice told my fingers where to put...What to do...Then...This book report went all the way to Hong Kong...
The article, Nature, which was oso writen by me in some day back then, in the middle of the nite juz like this...This little voice was still there to help my fingers...And I got a certificate for following the little voice...
This little voice...is a gift from God...
This little voice...is my inspiration...
This little voice...kept me going...
This little voice...made me write out this post...
This little voice...became louder...
Now that I found the little voice...
It'll no longer be a little voice...
It's now a louder voice in my head...
Now...
It doesn't act like the little voice it used to be...
It's telling me to sleep...
It's putting weights on my eyelids...
It's starting to let go of my fingers...
Maybe it should still be the little voice...
Maybe it should still be hidden at some part of my mind...waiting to come and guide my finger some other midnites...
I should juz leave the little voice where it should be...
Swimming around in my mind as it likes...
When delighted...It'll come back...It'll always be there....



*I simply wrote this...Juz like wad the article said...I was juz following my mind...Typing blindly mostly...Don't nidda take it serious...*

Im going to put band events top 5 on my list now...
Top 1 will nvr change...It be our heavenly father...although sometimes...ya...u know...
Top 2...My friends and family!
Top 3...My dear piano...
Top 4...My dear laptop...Oso the one that keeps on pushing to the first...
Feels great to be back playing my clarinet...
Even brought it back to house...
Seems like my lips are really really weak now...
My fingers are a bit numb...
My lung capacity...shrunken I think...
I took a very very big step BACK...since PMR exam...
Since that exam I didn't went back for practice...
One step of time...A huge step back taken by me...
Rmb this quote made by me...
U nvr know...

Well...
These few dayz can't wake up late in the afternoon now...
In fact...
Gotta wake up early...8 o' clock...Gosh~
How can I get my needed sleep...




During todays section practice...
We went to fruity for lunch...
Gosh...
I only brought RM 10...
Almost pokai...Ate an oversized sandwich only...Well...it kept me full for a while...
Not until we decided to walk back to school...
Walk 1km++ at 1pm...
Well...it's only like tat...
But when you don't get enuf food...
LOL
I digested all the sandwich I ate juz now...
The trip to Fruity was a waste...since there was nothing left in my stomach when I got back to band room...Gosh...
*Note to self: Nvr go to eat at a place where you are not familliar with taking only RM 10 with you...And nvr...walk long distance after a sandwich lunch...you'll regret that you went to eat...*



My lips hurt from playing the clarinet too long this nite...
Ouch~

Me dad sent me an email...
The email says about a very young CEO in India...
The youngest CEO in India perhaps...
At the age of 42...same as me dad...
He died from a massive cardiac arrest...
Heart attack stroked from nowhere...
He wasn't fat...in fact he was a marathon runner...He was in great shape...Good diet...but he was the youngest CEO in India...Major pressure...Does that have to do with his sudden leaving??? The answer is no...Experts says...
His murderer is...not enuf sleep...

When I read to this point...I realize that dad doesn't like me staying up too late...
And I realize how danger izit to sleep less than 7 hours...
Normally I will sleep late...But wake up late in the morning...sometimes afternoon...



This is a weird holiday...
Really weird feeling about this holiday...

Finding...
Searching...
Looking...
For something...
To do...
In this boring week of holiday...

Heard that most of my frenz are stuck at home or else at office....poor octo...
Only this week will be a bit of boring...
Cuz nowhere to go...
After this week...It'll be practice...practice...and more practice...
Practice for band...
Practice for piano...
Practice for skit for camp...
It's gonna be real full after this boring week...
These few dayz I woke up at almost lunch time...
Mum says Im gonna be like a pig...Juz woke up then eat...then come online...then sleep again...
Bro keeps on take away my nite time...Says he's going to skul in the morning and afternoon so I can use it that time...But the second day I woke up finding him sleeping next to me...Gosh...


Practice at least 3 hours of piano everyday for this holiday!!!
Still in need of a piano teacher!!!

Firstly...
Late wishes to me mum...Happy Birthday!!! It's suppose to be yesterday (it's 12am now...considered second day)
Hope you can still be young and beautiful and filled with your motherly love...
Love ya mum...
God bless!!!

Now...
Juz watched 2012 with me family...It's pretty weird to watch a movie about the end of the world on my mum's birthday...dad said it's quite matching...生日快乐...世界末日...both have 日in it...so lame la...
Anyways...
It's pretty nice...with all those effects and stuffs...
It made me imagine what would it be like...
The movie starts by showing the weird signs starting from 2009...
Which is THIS year...
Then slowly brings out the other signs of end of the world...
Pretty amazing how they made it so real...
And more...they shooted this movie based of real facts...
Well...part facts...
Erm...maybe no facts at all...
But a civilisation...the Mayans...predicted that year...would be the end of all...
Actually to be more precise...Mayans said that it would be the end of their calendar...Nothing about the whole woohaa boom here boom there bye bye world kinda things...Their juz end their long count to that particular date...21.12.2012...End of this...Beginning of that...
Nothing is right about them...
My opinion actually...
But...something IS true about the end...
We ARE living...in the end...
The end isn't juz one day...
It's a hell of a lifetime...
We are ending...

I can't myself...to think...
Wad will happen...if tomoro is the last day of this earth...
Wad feeling do I get...
Wad will I do...
Where will I go...
Who will I look for...
Why should I be doing this!?
I should be living my life to the fullest...
I should be doing my best to make everyday meaningful...
I should be scratching my head for the answers of my exams...
I should be...before it all ends...



Not many will be going to the camp...
Hope that last minute ppls can turn up a few more minutes earlier...
40 ppl...can be fun...
But 60 ppl...can be more fun...
Wow...
It's 1am aldi...
Guess I really should be an owl now...
My eyes are still light and bright...
My mind is still...well...dumb and stupid as well...lol...

Juz came back from the BBQ party at Angel's house...
Wad a boom it was...
Well...
Got some bruise during the really very completely painful game of....Hit-you-with-the-bottle game...
Anyway...I accidentally broke one of the chairs...BY ACCIDENT...didn't noe I was tat heavy already...XD...Still feel a little bit pain at my butt...feels like I got kick in the ass...but hey...new experience...I nvr got kicked at the ass...
It was really fun...really crazy...really happy...really high...Everyone was enjoying themselves...
But the harsh reality hit us all back when we started to sit down and chat...
Shian Lin...the most crazy girl in our class I guess...is leaving us next year...will surely miss her wonderful yet ear piercing shouts...XD
Chi Hong...even tho I don't like being sex abused by him but...he is a gud fren tat we don't want to leave...leaving us for next year as well...
Jia Chen...the china boy...your "poems" are quite impressive...but I couldn't say the word "keep it up"(those who noes noe wad I mean)...will miss ya...
Jun Xiao...another china boy...even tho we only spent one year together...but once a fren...always a fren...will miss ya too pal...oh ya...u still haven't confirm leaving lolx...
But hey...we are all separating next year...
Those who chose to walk the path of science stream...
N those who chose to go accounts...
I will truly really miss...this 3 years...
For we are really a wonderful class...
We are gud at almost everything...anything...including the bad things tho...XD
Our 3 years weren't wasted in the end...
We wrote a splendid history together...
And left behind magnificent footprints...
LOVE YA J3F(09)!!!

I rmb this feeling...yet I can't describe it by words...
It's like magnetic poles holding each sides back...
I don't know what direction it eventually goes...
Everything...feels like nothing...
My whole mind has gone numb...
Im tired of this crap...

Missed a few dayz of band practice...feels kinda guilty for it...but hey...it's me body's problem not my mind...That what comes after you played a whole 48 hours...No more voice...No more energy...Im begining to think that I should be an owl...Now I can't sleep at nite...And Im really tired in the morning SOMETIMES...yet sometimes I don't feel anything at all...
My emotions are suddenly too low...Finally...I finally rmb this feeling...Everytime after a camp...or vacation...or something like a party...or juz being with a crowd of people...this is the feeling I get after these...empty...quiet...silence...nothing...
Well...it's normal actually...after a few dayz...I'll get myself back...

Im getting really really forgetfull these dayz...I wonder if it's bcuz of juz finishing a big exam...My whole mind seems to went for vacation...lazy to think somemore...LOL...
Now I rmb something I forgot...the pics...haven't posted it up...btr write it down or else I will forget AGN...

*Haven't watch 2012 yet!!! ARGH~~!*

Tomoro be my dear Mummy's birthday!!!

Well...
For the whole story of my class' first and last vacation trip together...
Im really really lazy to put it all up...
Pictures will be coming soon...

Okay...
Juz one special thing that happened at the trip...
We have a water polo game at first day...which was yesterday...
It's ROOM 2 vs ROOM 1 & 3...Xiao kia....
We were really outnumbered...
Oh ya...
Im in room 2...
Each room consists of 8 ppl...
so...
Its 8 against 16...
Wonderful~! Juz wonderful~!
Before we came swimming...we went to the obstacle course...
It was nice...N I used up much of me energy...
So...
When we were about to jump in the pool...
I didn't think of warming up since juz now was more than warm ups...
I was about to pay for being lazy...
I was juz swimming around...fast as I could...
Then...
The first cramp hitted me...on the right leg...
The first person in the pool to get cramp...
Lots more followed my lead...
The lots are from me team...mostly...XD
So...
Thank the Lord that our class has a former Saint John member...Octopus
And...A fully qualified life-saver in our class...Timun...^^
They saved me from the cramp...
So...
I was back in action not more than 15 mins...
Jumped back in,...
Threw more balls...
Then...
Second cramp hitted me...On the left leg...
Then its the whole "leg-saving" thing all over again...
After recovering from the hit...
Me and Shao Wei (who was as well one of the cramp team) decided to go back earlier since our legs juz can't play well...
I forgot that our room had the aircond on-ed for half of the day...
The whole room is like my fridge....
And both of me legs got cramp again....bcuz of the cold mostly...
With quite a distance from Timun and Octopus...
Shao Wei...and Birdy...was handed the job of helping me...
The whole proccess was both funny and painful...
Ask them...Then you'll know wad happened...
I laughed in pains...
Laughed and laughed and laughed...
When my leg's cramp was gone...
My face got another cramp bcuz of me laughing too long...in the cold...

I'll never forget this cramp-ing day in my life...
4 cramps in a row...How can life get any better...

Lolz...
Feel like typing...
But nothing in mind to type...
Or izit me can't express my feelings???
Sunday...
Can't go to church...
Cuz I will be going to PD with class...
2 dayz 1 nite...
The first and last outting with my class...
The first and last nite sleeping with my class...
Wow...
It all seems like yesterday when I first set foot in this skul...
Tat time I haven't even reach 170cm in height...
Tat time I haven't have the feeling of doing my hair...RIDICULOUS HAIR TAT TIME...
Tat time I haven't even learn to make frenz...
Tat time I haven't see this day...this last day of wearing wad I hated the most...Short! White! Pants!...
Now...
I wanna wear it longer...
Juz for a bit...
One more day to spend together wif my classmates...
Together...
Class stand...
Bow...
Thank you teacher...

I still remember the first few weeks when I started studying in this skul...
Whenever I have the time to daydream...
My mind kept on flew to how quick this will be...
I kept on feel like it will only be dayz to J3...
Then on will I go to senior...
Then on will I wear...long pants...
Then on will I climb the long and tiresome stairs...
It really really felt like yesterday...
Or juz last week....
But all has past...

Dang...Im being so moody these few dayz...
Wad has gotten into me???



Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path. (Ps 119:105)
O lord...
Continue to shine upon my way...
Light up the valleys...
Be my guidance in this stormy world...
Without you...
There will be no me...
You...
Are my Lord...

Yikes...
Watch Tsunami agn...
But this time with the deleted scenes that the cinemas didn't show...
Major drop on my emotion scale...
Kinda wanna cry out loud...
Ok...
Exaggerating...

Well...
after the show...
I went back to continue devouring the last book of Pendragon...
Well...
Big ending...
And at the big endings of the big novels written by big author published in big scales read by me big reader...
Big drop on the emotion scale agn...
Well...
These are all fictions...
But...
When you are really into it...
You really flow with the storyline...
I hate it when it comes to the end...

Talking about end...
Today be my last day of wearing short pants to skul...
Even though I really really hate wearing short pants...especially the skul's white tight wans...
Kinda miss it...
Last day...
Last book...
Last chance...
Bye bye junior...
Nvr in another lifetime will I come back agn...

Today got my report card...
Wow...
Ain't that bad after all...
But it's really obvious that year start I was only playing...
My score was like shit...
But it's more obvious that the 2nd semester I chiong-ed...
Jump over 10 place...
But...eventually the year start's score pulled me down...
Well...
After going in AC stream...
Betta do more hard work..
Since everyone wanna take their honeymoon...
I will chiong more ahead...
IF I CAN DO TAT...LOL...

Two dayz liao...
Didn't come to my blog to update...
Adui...
These few dayz too sleepy...
Too tired...
Kinda overslept everytime...
I slept from 4pm to 4 am...
Skipped my dinner oso...
Btr change my lifestyle a bit...
This is killing me...
Wake up early in the morning but can't get back to sleep...
Then when I tot of coming online to blog...
The wireless seems to have some problems...
Can't get online...
I have to use another line...(Dunno whos line is this)...to come online to blog...
Hope he doesn't come and ask for the money...

This is a really busy holiday...
Not the kind of relaxing holiday...
Too much to do...
There's a concert at 18th Dec...
Im back at the position of selling tickets...haiz...
Then there's a camp for the band...
Im at the position of vice president...lotz of work since president will be going for SPM...
Then there's the Youth Camp...
Im the secretary...Lotz of mail...meeting reports...Means lotz of nite awake too^^
Dunno this holiday for me to recharge or for me to use up my batteries faster...
Hope tat I can rest more as well...

Later will be going to skul to get report card...YIKES!
Then...
It'll be adios amigos to junior...
Actually we did tat yesterday...
Well..
Official graduated from Junior High...
Today...
I will register a spot for Senior High...
Exciting life awaits me...

K...
Btr not use this unknown line for too long...

Today was quite...plain...
Chinese teacher told us wad really happened yesterday...
During the discussion of the judges...she was there...
And...
She heard some things...
Our class was actually tied off with the 2nd place...
We were nearly knocked off...
GOOOD THING....
We had 4 parts in this choir...
Which gave us a heck of advantages..
AND...
We ain't doing alot of flowery...and even disturbing side effects...
Which was the main factor why we got 1st...
Now...
I was actually nominated for the best conductor award...
But chinese teacher didn't say much about tat...
Still...
Now...
A big question mark hangs on top of my head...
Am I suitable...
For conducting...
My confidence is falling...
Fast...
Waves and waves...
Shots by shots...
Coming and coming...
Towards me...
Juz when I committed myself to conduct...
Things...juz came...

Well...
Letz hope the question mark doesn't hang on there for too long...
I want answers....
I really need answers...



This is a really hard road to walk...
You can only be the best to walk this road...
Or you will be kicked out...

I can't believe Im this tired...
I went to slept right after I came back from skul...
Didn't know that I will sleep this long...
From 5pm something...
Til now...
Skipped my dinner...
Skipped my favourite tv show as well...
Now...
In the middle of the nite...
Im well awake...
But it's only 5 in the morning...
I can only wait for the sun to come out now...

Still so many ahead...
Now I think that UEC isn't an ending...
It be the start of another busy life...
At senior 1...
I really...really...need to lie down...
N get ready for the next 3 yrs of amazing life...

Well...
We've made it...
We've got the last glorious moment TOGETHER!!!
We've proved to be the best among others...
We are J3F!!!

Thank you all...
For listening...
For giving advice...
For cooperating...
N...
For being in this big part of the family...
Thank you all...



Not really in the mood of details...
Juz happy for our recent winning...
J3F da best!

Tomoro...
Be the day...
Many has been waiting for...

Before big occasions happened...
Some small yet disturbing things do happen sometimes...
Things so disturbing that may affect the big occasions...
Don't let satan have his chance...
Before going on the battlefield already fighting own people is the dumbest thing to do...
But nowadayz...
Ppl do tat...
However we still have the chance of standing back up...
Stand back up against the enemy...
Hold up our confident heart...
Forget everything...
And juz accomplish the mission...

J3F...
I noe...
Deep in my heart...
We are still a class...
And...
We can do it...
+U.....

Slept too much for nap...
Now my eyes are wide open...
Nth much to do now...
Tomoro will be a busy day though...
Gotta go clean the toilet...lolx...
It'll be fun I guess...It's all boyz!!!
When a group of boyz do something together at the same time...same place...things will get crazy...especially in the toilet...
Old Scottish Melody...
An old song...But a whole lot nicer than the new wan...
It's melody is the same with 友谊万岁...
But it's arrangement is whole lot better...
Glad coach thought of it...Don't wanna play a boring song for the graduates...
Tomoro we'll nid to play it for an hour or so...
Wow...
I juz got on 1st for 3 dayz??? And I juz came back from exam to play at band for...3 dayz oso???
My clarinet SUCKS...*not the instrument...the player...that would be me...*
I suck...*sigh*
But I know...
My skill will come back...
My passion will light up again...
IF!!!
I practice...^^


How great is our God...
Sing with me...
How great is our God...
All will sing...
How great...How great...
Is our God...
You are the name above all names...
You are worthy of all praise...
And my heart will sing...
How great...
Is our God...
*taken from the song [How Great is Our God]*

Juz how great is He...
How magnificent...
How wonderful...
I can feel His love for me everyday...
How???
Cuz I can see everyday!!!
I am blessed with life for everyday...
Not juz life...
But all the good...
Juz how great is He?

Finally...
My eye lids have some weight on it...
Nitezzz

Tru God's blessings...
Our class got in the finals...
It was really something...
The other form 2 choirs were real good...
But most of 'em were juz performing...not singing...
6 outta 10 i guess were juz using their costumes...boards...this...that...flowery things to get the marks...
I say...they got their full 10 marks for the creative section but threw their 30 marks of music...=p
But anyways...
They were really GOOD...
But...
We were better!!! XD
It's a really hard job for the judges to choose out 5 classes to enter the finals...So they made a decision to let more class in...
The announcement of the classes to enter the finals was really really scary...When they started to announce all of us in the canteen was like suddenly quiet...He first said J2X...then J2X....then J2x agn...then another J2X...(there should be only 5 classes chosen to enter the finals...Im saying according to the sequence)...Then...Wad we tot was the last...J2x...My heart dropped...I guess many from our class dropped their heart as well...Juz when we were about to faint...The announcement continued...And another class was reported to enter the finals...J2@...ANOTHER JUNIOR TWO CLASS!!! Altogther 6 classes!!! Then I was like...OMG OMG OMG...Plz CONTINUE!!! Then it really did!!! "The next class entering the finals is....J....3....Y...." There is hope!!! "Last but not least...J........3..............F!!!" Then it was all black......

Well...we made it into the finals...
But wad now?
1st place is like...wow...
There for us to grab...

*Note to self...*
No1.Dun stand too near to the stage end...You nearly fell off the stage today...Yikes...
No2.Rmb to tell Shao Wei...You will look at him then nod...THEN ONLY the song starts...
No3.Your butt looks ridiculous...Heard it frm someone...XD
No4.Rmb to turn the lights on your hat you dumb...
No5.Continue to put yourself in the music...Dun care about the audience...XD
Lastly...but not least...Enjoy...The last time with your class!
DUN FALL OFF THE STAGE!!!

Emotion...
Y is there emotion...
Emotions are linked to feelings...
Feelings are linked to thinking...

Y is there happy...
Y is there sad...
Y is there anger...
Y is there bored...
Y is there scare...
Why?!
It's there...
From the begining...
Till the end...
It will still be there...
Feelings affects our actions...
Feelings affects our words...
Feelings affects quite much thing....
Sometimes...We should follow our feeling to do something...
Sometimes...We shouldn't follow our feeling...but control it...
Control feelings...
Or should I say...
Control emotions...
Basically ...EQ...

I was following the plan...tat I have made...teaching the choir...juz according to the plan...But...I couldn't really get into the situation...Cuz there's something bothering me...My emotions...I was desperate...for nothing...Maybe there was something...but I couldn't sense it...I saw the emotions of my singers...Some of them eager to sing...But some of them eager to give the opinions...their way...their music...I wasn't really not fond of it...But...I was standing in front...It was quite disrespectful...I learn to control my emotions...pressing it down...listening...TRYING DESPERATELY to listen to every last advice given...It was difficult...With only 2 ears...N one big mind tat already have the picture of wad should I do...My music...Was continuously said...said...said...n said...My whole picture of the music...has totally ruined...I lost my OWN direction...So I stop the first session earlier...
It was a gud thing tat my art teacher was there...Well...He was into arts...Music is a kind of art as well...juz different...One more simillar thing is he is a teacher...I am oso teaching...After listening to his advice...I feel a bit more relief...I was totally not in the mood of eating...chating...Luckily Hui Min asked me to go to the band room...to stress out...She was a listener...A few advice given oso...*Im really still a learning conductor...About beautiful conducting...Tat should be about experience*....
I made a prayer to God...Asked Him to open my mind...Inspire me...N most of all...Be with me...All the time...
Second session started off smoothly...I was really into it already...Juz only when Shao Wei makes a mistake...The ending I made was a bit slow...So I called Hui Min to make it faster...Then suddenly...XX has something to say...XX says tat it should be ''something''...I was really trying to listen to her...Trying to understand wad was she saying...With all the noise and confusion... A misunderstanding occured...I still rmb I even shouted to quiet the choir...juz to listen...But then she was already angry already...FOR NTH???!!!
Gud thing at tat moment the bell sorta gone rite at the perfect moment...I walked to XX's seat and tried to understand wad really was she saying...But all XX said was.......
"You always act like the pro wan...N dun ever listen to other opinions..."
Those words really stabbed me...
I was following my own plan...
I was following my way of music...
Juz being me...Is tat a wrong?!?!
Frenz told me not to bother...My own mother oso told me to do tat...
Someone even told me...tat now tat Im the conductor...I should BE the conductor...Without ONE person giving the main ideas...The situation would be more chaotic...

Stick to the plan...Joe...
Juz stick to it...

How to make a band play nicer...
How to make a choir sing better...
How to make a song sound more beautiful...
How to make myself more into the song...
Critics has started to come...
Juz at the start of my conducting...
Should I move on...
Or should I move away...

I now taste the true flavour of conduct...
It combines the essences of sweet...bitter...sour...sometimes tasteless...
I've been learning to listen and order at the same time...
It's really hard...for a starter like me...
But I really wanna head on...this way...
I really wanna learn...
I really wanna conduct my own song...
I really wanna go in my own style..
My own way...
Music...A kind of art which not all might enjoy with you...
Music...A really blurry type of art which ones mind muz be right to know the true meaning of it...
My music...isn't really enjoyed by everyone...
Wads the reason?
Bcuz it's juz different ears...
Different music in the hearts of theirs...
Then another question pops out in my mind...
How to make the music...Everyone loves...
Classical...Loved by high education-ed
Pop...Loved by the most
Jazz...Loved by the ones who know it
Blues...Loved by the ones who do it...
Dance...Swing...Rock...Hard metal...Rap...etc etc etc...
So many kinds of music...
But not one of it...Is enjoyed by EVERY LAST PERSON ON EARTH...

It's monday already...
The competition is on friday...
There is only 3 dayz left for practice...My class progress is now in a steady pace...We are now tyring to make the dynamics come out...N more trying to make the voice sound more beautiful...The girls in our choir has a really wonderful voice already...No problems there...The only problem is with the boyz...Only a few has the correct sound...But I trust at the end...They will be right...
Today...I finally heard my bass' voice come out...They finally made it to hold the structure...My base is more stable...Now it's with the appearance of my song...I have been listening and listening to the song from when I started to write this blog till...dunno...lolz....I am starting to get the hang of conducting...But...Someone said my conducting isn't really beautiful...Actually someone said it was really ugly...I don't understand...I was juz following my instincts...No...Wait...I was following my feelings...My feelings...Connected with the song...Well...Half connected perhaps...Shao Wei still haven't got the hang of the chords...Keeps on putting out the feelings for the song...When the singers were about to enter the song...Shao Wei hits a wrong note...N more...Said sry... I mean...there's nth wrong about tat..Asking him to learn this song in a weeks time without any basics for chord is really not fair to him...I shouldn't make him feel bad...But instead at this kind of time...I should really support him...Give him confidence...Only 3 dayz left...I really need his feeling as well...
I have been trying to keep up on writing a blog everyday...Y? Bcuz a few dayz ago...I was a bit boring...Then my blog came into my mind...I went to see back my older post...Then I found out the little bits of me in the past...Little mistakes tat I shouldn't make again...or...Things tat i should keep on doing...It's quite interesting reading the past...even if it is about mysef...These are my footprints in the stream of time...

So...
3 dayz left...
Day 1...tat will be tmr...Learn the correct way of singing from Xue Yi and Qiu Rong...Then practice the parts...Combine...should teach them the dynamics already...
Day 2...Thursday...Continue to learn the singing ways...Parts will take only 5 mins...Then off to combine...More on combine practice...Cuz there's no more time left for the details...Continue to bring out the feelings...Feel real...Feel the song...
Day 3...Friday...Oso the competition's eliminating round...If we can pass the first round...Then I should think of more interesting...Creative ideas for the song...For now...stick to the plan...Friday...No need for singing basics...Head straight to part practices 5 mins...Then quickly start the combine...Emphasize on the feeling and performance...Facial expression isn't crucial...But the feeling muz be there...Rmb...Happy...Merry...Christmas...We are giving presents...on stage...

This will be the practice time table for the last 3 day...Hope nth goes wrong so I can stick to the plan...Gambateh J3F...God bless us all...

Another month passed...
Entering the ending of this year...
Then I start to think back...
Look back...
Rewind back...
To all the dayz behind me...
I see mistakes...
Falls...
Failures...
But those are only the dots...
On the big white board...
Wad is the big white board???
It be the blessing through out the year...
I found that everyday...I was filled with blessing God gave...
Cuz everyday...is a blessing already...

It's time to end this year...
Time to end my junior life...
It's time to start a new year...
Time to start my senior life...
This is why our eyes are in front...
To look to the future...
And put our past behind...
It's time to draw the perfect full-stop...

First day sitting at 1st...
Feels kinda great...
All those beside are real good players...
And more you get to interact with coach...
But...
Pressure...
Pain...
Practice...
Practice...I really needa get more practice...
Well...No pain No gain...
Now I need to have pain...
Then I can have gain...
Fair enough...^^

Choir in our class...quite well...Everyone was quite into it AT FIRST...But then...They don't really practice music like we do everyday...Don't know the painful boring and wad seems meaningless practices...They haven't see the hard day's job with a perfect applause ending on stage...I hope that will be the vision shared by us all...Not..."Gosh...This is boring...Soooo sienz...","Adui...wanna sleep liao leh...", "I don't know wad are you talking about..." kind of things...

Maybe my classmates are more on the logical side...They don't feel the sound out...They try different ways...Forcing the right sound out...Some caught the technic...Some...Well...Kept on singing the wrong notes everytime...Today...I found out a special technic to be taught to them...To teach them how to sing the right note...It might be a good way in the future for me to teach music idiots=p
First...I call them to be quiet...Lolz...Then...I play the note with the keyboard...Tell everyone to open their ears now...N concentrate...Juz with you ears...Dun think anything else...Juz listen the note being played... After that...I tell them to put their hands on their ear...So that they can hear wad they are singing...After that...I tell them to sing out the note...WITH confidence...not logic thinking...Juz SING...with your heart...with confidence...and HIT the note precisely the first time...AFTER THAT...piece of cake...

Our progress is quite steady...Not the rocket shooting kind of improvement...But we surely aren't standing on the same place this whole time...Our class took some big steps together...Juz like when our class finally get to sing together with different sections...The whole pictures is out...Juz like when the song intro is finally nice to listen...The structure is being formed...I juz hope our class will continue be growing in that way...Without any sudden changes...This choir might be performing to 1000++ students at the skul hall...The last stage performance by J3F for 2009! Awaits us all!!!

Once agn...
I was back to the old dayz...after the hard long exam...it's another wave of hard long band pracitces...hip-hip-hurray???
NOOooo....
My lips...
My breath...
My lungs...
My stomach...
My brain...
Wow...
Soooo tired...But hey...no pain...no gain...N wad did I gained??? Music...The enjoyment of music...There be nth better...then enjoying ur hard long basics...and playing the great songs with ur best mates...The nicest treat...to the ears...


I was ask by coach today...He asked if I wanna chg to the sexaphone section...Really really tempting...But...haiz...spent 3 yrs with clarinet...N somemore...I m the first boy in...i dunno 3~4yrs who joined the clarinet?? Boys are REALLY rare in clarinet...But...most boys are the ones who are gud at this instrument...I myself...Haven't reach the point...But....I guess there comes a time...When Im suddenly in love with it...Then u'll c me fly with it...
Well...There comes a time...
Letz hope it comes fast...Cuz the singaporeans are comin'...HAaa

绿色树下堆满礼物
彩色卡片围绕火炉
笑容在人们的脸上流露
喜乐从音符滑出
每一句真诚的祝福
化成天使为我们守护
爱的降临揭开了 圣诞的序幕
这是最美丽的礼物
叮叮当 叮叮当
铃声多响亮
在这闪烁的光彩之中
我心不住歌颂
叮叮当 叮叮当
铃声多响亮
在这永恒的应许中
爱就是最美的礼物


Y?
This be the song we will be singing at the competition...
Y?
I wan this to be remembered...
Tat we...
J3F...
Sung together...
Been together...
Wadever together...
We...
2009 J3F...
Be the best class...
I think...
Will ever have...
Gambateh!!!

Here i am...
Sitting in front of my com...
In the middle of the nite...
Enjoying my time after UEC...
N thinking of things...
Things long burried deep within my mind...


I've juz finished the SATB for our choir...(SATB means voice sections. S for Seprano/A for Alto/T for Tenor/B for Base). At first it would be pretty easy...Its only finding the chords rite??? When I started...I found out...tat this was a troublesome job...FINDING CHORDS...isn't wad it seems...seems easy...The chord arrangements can't be too simple but at the same time not too hard to learn...It muz be special but the one perfect sound is very hard to find...Then there's a whole bunch of other things bothering...Example...SATB means four sections...MEANS>>>FOUR DIFFERENT SCORE FOR EACH...gosh...When I finally thought of tat...it was too late to turn back...Nvr gonna say...I give up...

So...I made a rough copy of the piano score...Then I started playing the chords...N at the same time playing the parts in my mind...Trying to see the big picture of the whole performance...It's really really fun! But...talk abt the battery of my brain...Used up over 60% of it for UEC I think...Then these few dayz I dint get any good long rests...Woah...abt less than one week to the competition...I juz arrange the chords TODAY!!! My fellow frenz couldn't possibly learn it all at one day?! Then practice with the piano and other instruments will be a problem as well...I hope Kai Yun they all can think of a gud solution for this...Cuz...I think I will juz spend my left-over battery on how to make the music sound like...MUSIC!

With so many problems out there waiting to be solve...It all seems so...so....pecek...lolz...But...Nvr gonna say...I give up...Cuz there's a motivation...A target...A mission...Playing with music...is juz the thing I wan to do...It's juz the rite thing to get an headache for after the exams...
Nvr gonna say...I give up...



The long hard winter have passed...
The dark and cold sky...
Have been coloured by the flowers blooming in the spring...
All seems so well...
And it will be...
For a long time...
It's finally spring...
Lastly...
Gonna say this...once agn...
Nvr...gonna...say...I give up...
Never...

Finally...
All the hardwork given...
Hardwork???
Think so...lol
UEC has finally ended...

Today...
Sometime around 5 in the morning...
Somewhere near Ipoh...
A car lost it's control...
N crash onto the divider on the cars right...
If the car slided to the left...
There would be nothing left of it...
Cuz at the left...
Was the slope of the mountain...
The danger wasn't ended...yet...
The car was at the divider...
In the middle of the road...
In the middle of the nite...
Cars went by...
Missing it by inches...
Another had oso crash onto the divider so tat he won't crash into the car...
Thank Lord...
Thank God...
He blessed my father...
He protected him...
He gave him the sign as well...
Bcuz the man in the car who lost his control n crash onto the divider...
Is my dear o' Dad...
I am so thrilled to hear frm my mum tat he juz been tru a terrible accident...
The gud thing is he didn't got hurt...
The OTHER gud thing is tat...He didn't slide to the left...
If so....
God knows wad happens...
Thank God...


Actually...
It was something my dad asked for...
NOT THE ACCIDENT...
But...A sign...
A guidence...
He is troubled wif his job...
He wants to come back here to work...
But he is not sure whether to resign his current job...
Or continue...
So he prayed...
N ask for a OBVIOUS SIGN...
He nvr thought tat it will be happening on the road to Pinang...
The yellow light has been shown...
He imaediately handed his resignation letter to his boss...
N now...
We will c where the Lord wants us to take our next step...
Once agn...
Thank You Lord...
For protecting and blessing my dad...
Thank You Lord...
For oso watching over our family...
Thank You Lord...
For giving me peace during my UEC...
Without You Lord...
I am nothing...
So...
Thank You...
For everything...

The long awaited finish...
Last day...
Last day...
27th October...2009...
I have been waiting u for AGES!!!
AHAHAHA!!!!
MUAHAHAHA!!!!
omg...i've gone crazy...
tatz wad books will do to u if u don't read them day by day...then suddenly swallow them at the last minute...
O.o!!!


After "Independence Day of UEC"...
SoOOoooOOOooo~~~~much to do...
lolx...
First~!
The choir~~!
J3f's last...really last...competition...we join together...
I was really supprise when i gt informed tat the whole class is joining (well...almost the whole class...the few kittens weren't really into our class)...
49!!! FOR A CHOIR!!!
I guess we will be the biggest team in the competition...
As always...we are the biggest...><
It will be a "Mission Impossible" to lead a 49 ppl choir to get gud performance within 7 dayz...
zzz....
I feel very small now...
But!!!
With the Lord as my Shepherd...
N the Light for my path...
I shall NOT fail!!!
I shall NOT fall!!!
I shall be STRENGTHENED!!!
J3F~! GAMBATEH!!!

Last 3 dayz...to UEC...
Im not sure whether am I prepared...
My heart is not beating like usual these dayz...
It keeps on skip a beat or two...
Can't catch my breath sometimes...
Study...til wanna cry...
Things I tot i noe...isn't really wad i tot...
7 more dayz...
A week...
All will be over...


OH YA...
I have chosen...
Chosen Account Stream...
Y???
Cuz...I have chosen...
To walk the path of music in the future...
It will be hard...
Especially in this country...
Flying out of this cage is neccessary...
Is juz the matter of money...
But then it's always the problem with money...
Scholarship...
University...
Wadever...
Focus on Junior UEC first...

Oh...and another thing...
I GOT FIRST PRIZE FOR THE 24th Annual Book Report Contest!!!
Unbelievable...
But true...
Praise the Lord...
Glory to God!!!
For He is the sheperd guiding me...
The light tat shown my path!!!

He is totally...100%...full...blind...
I cut...
Then he said...i dint cut...
N HELP ME CUT OFF MY PRECIOUS HAIR!!!
I reli wanna c him try standing in MY position...
Try out having a ridiculous haircut...
Feel the pain and agony given frm "dearest" frenz...
Receive curious, weird, disgusted stares and glares from others...
OMG...
WANNA TRY TAT!?TEACHER!?

A few cm's over my eyeBROWNS wont hurt...
Who am I hurting anyway??!!
Ur eyes hurt...tatz UR problem...
My eyes aren't hurt by my own hair...
Wad...
Short hair students are more disiplined???
Go outside n c for ursef...
Alot of mafias...killers...gangster have "botak" hair...
Alot of magnificent people like Samson the strong keeps his strength by growing longer hair...
Why do we have to cut it anyway...
Sometimes it reli a waste of money anyway...
Try spending ur money on a haircut u don't like...
Hair hurt...Heart hurt...Money hurt...EYES HURT...
Ya...people who have sense of beauty will hurt their eyes when they c wad u cut...
LOL...
U don't have any sense of tat...
Little eyes tat only c how much "mm's" the hair has crossed the lines...
U like "botak" u cut ursef la...don't nid to make others like u mah...
U think everyone can have the same head like urs ah...
SURE NOT!!!
Skul dint offer u this job for u to go and cut ppl's hair...n hurt their dignity...
Skul dint wan u to make ppl UGLY!!!
U URSEF GO MAKE URSEF UGLY LA!!!
HOW CAN I RESPECT U...WHEN U AREN'T RESPECTING ME!!!
I RESPECT U AS A TEACHER BEFORE...AS WAD I WAS SUPPOSE TO DO...
U WERE ONLY DOING UR JOB...
BUT U...ARE DEFINATELY...NOT A HAIRCUTTER...
U CAN CUT GRASS...BUT MY HAIR IS NOT THE GRASS U R CUTTING IN UR GARDEN!!!

How I wanted to scream out dirty words at u tat time...
But tat would make me cheap...LIKE U...
Cheap ppl...cut out cheap hairstyle...
I HAVE HUMAN RIGHTS...
IT IS MY RIGHTS TO KEEP MY HAIR IN THE FIRST PLACE...
WHEN DOES IT SAYS TAT MY HAIR IS LIKE THE GRASS GROWING AT UR BACKYARD...
N U NID TO CUT IT OFTENLY...
NO!!! TATZ MY HAIR AND U KEEP UR ******* HANDS OFF MY HAIR NOW N FOREVER!!!
I TELL U I AM GOING TO KEEP MY HAIR!!! FROM NOW ON IF U STILL DARE TO PUT ANOTHER STINKING FINGER ON ME!!! GOD KNOWS WAD THE HELL I AM GOING TO RELEASE.......

Wow...how long has it been...
Since skul band's concert...
Finally have time to come to this blog...

I have passed a full 15 yrs on Earth!!!
lolx...
Juz passed me birthday...6th August...
I am half way to mid age dude...
zzz...
Y am i thinking tat...lolzz

Now...
August...
Happened alot of things...
Including...
Birthday...ssss...
Then...
Exam...sss...
after tat...
not much...
Oh ya!!
Im gonna get a puppy!!! w00t!
lolx...

Exam results are all out...
haiz...
no 8*....three 9*...XD...someone is gonna hit me for tat...
5 B...3 A...
lolx...
my chinese almost fail...=.=
rite at the border...
dangerous...
english...
this time dint even got into 3rd place...haiz...
rite...
Chinese~60 (wow...59+1....love ya teacher!)
BM~68 (considered high mark at class... hehe... XD)
ENG~93 (haiz...this one ah...haiz...no...words...to...haiz...juz...haiz...)
Math~90 (quite well...BUT...alot of careless mistakes...lolx...)
Chemistry~ 79 (almost...almost...)
Geo~ 66 (adui...always the same...i hate m'sia geo...XD)
His~ 91 (done well...but...still can improve...)
Bio~ 73 (Gosh...dunno wad i doing...last day sure gt one subject like this wan...)
Physics~ 63 (haiz...the question dunno frm where de...NEXT TIME...dun think toooo much when answering...frm right answer can turn into wrong one...)

Now...
Basically...
Its not well...
The average mark for this exam is....76.6%
higher than last time...
Last time like ****
Gud thing this time gt improve...

Entering winter...
long...
hard....
cold...
terrible...
Winter...
EXAMS R HERE~~~!!!
lolx...
3 in a row...
Graduation Exam...
PMR Exam...
UEC Exam...
the nearest is 23 dayz frm now...
Time to put on the exam face...
WHO SAYS I CANT GET GUD MARKS IF I WANT TO...
ITS UP TO ME IF I WANNA GRAB IT OR NOT...!!!



1st September 2009...
Next entry of blog will most probably be...next year gua...
so...
Blog will be quite cold as well...
sob*
Bye-bye bloggy...

2moro is a very important day...
if everyone wans to get 1st place...
if everyone rely see the goal of our class as an important thing...

Winning...
is such a simple thing...
the only thing it takes...
is the word...together...
thinking together...
practicing together...
work together...
march together...
run together...
shout together...
n finally...
we win together...

I hope 2moro...
everyone going for the competition....
can have the word...
together...
in every heart...




I also wanna say...
a BIG...SORRY...
to everyone...
to anyone...
to someone...
that I have been rude...mean...unkind...
I am SORRY...
That I have not work in my best....
I am SORRY...
to not accept your ideas...
to not appreciate...
to misunderstood...
I am SORRY...
if we lose...




I am very happy to work with you guyz...
KAMBATEH~~~!!!

This is another point in my life where i hav to go tru the valley of death...
Soooooo low....
Rocks keep falling from above...
Hitting me...Knocking me down...
Robbers robbed me...
Wolves chased me...
Its winter again...

With so many things ahead...
I dunno where to put my priority in...
Sports day...important...
Concert...more important...
Exam...much more important...

In these events i play a quite important role...
Pressure...
Forcing me down..
Squeezing the breath outta me...
I hope i won't fall down again...
I hope i can carry all the big rocks tru the valley n climb the mountain...
Rite to the top...

I pray to God...
I beg God...
to help me...
to guide me...
to carry me...
So tat i wont feel alone...
But in ur presences...
Help me O' lord...

Cant get out frm the feeling...
Depressed...
Sad...
Worried....
Pressure...
All kinds of negative feeling...
Crowded in my mind...

My project dunno how to do...
All data dissapear on my old com...cuz com gt virus...
Now...
Trying to find a way to make colour outta my printer...
Help me ah....

Whenever i hav this autumn feeling...i feel like leaving mysef frm the world...
i like the feeling of alone...sometimes...
tatz when my mind is the clearest...
Sometimes i feel like i hav deserted my frenz...
But i hope tat they would understand...
Sometimes i juz wanna be alone...
In my autumn world...waiting winter...hoping spring...dreaming summer...



*2day pmr very sienz ah!!! n the assembly....adui...We junior still hav a long way to go...





A life muz hav moutains n valley...
Not plain wide fields...
Life muz hav up...n down....high...n low...
Spring to Summer; Autumn to Winter...
Tatz wad a colorful life needs...

I dint juz went to Melaka for tat children camp...(oh ya...tat place was incredible...El Sanctuary...)
Most of my holidayz weren't sleeping at home...
In fact,
I've spent more nitez outside than at home...
Geezz...

After the camp...
Was another camp...
Skul band training...
But b4 tat...
On 7th June...
I went to a concert with my band...
KLCC...MPYO...
Malaysia Philharmonic Young Orchestra...
Gotta wear very formal oso...if not won't let u in...phew...
They were great...real cool...
Bcuz they can be in an orchestra...AT THIS AGE...
Most of them are college students i guess...
But there were a bunch of high skul students oso....
Their concert inspired a few of me frenz...
They suppose wanna quit the band...
But after tat concert...
One came n told me tat if his skills dint reach tat lvl...he wont leave the band...
*applause*

The day following...
Is the start of the training camp...
Hell's training...

From morning...
Practicing...
To nite...
My teeth have gone outta shape as well...
But...
It was worth it...
Most of us found back the spirit tat we were suppose to have...
I have a real gud feeling tat our future won't dim...

We watched a real cool movie...called...Drumline...
Its abt a outdoor marching band...
Marching bands are REAL diciplined...organized...professional...
The movie is abt a drummer who plays the snare drum who had juz went to university...
He is real talented...but self centered...
The storyline is how he changed himself...n eventually change his band director...n finally make history...
There was one special line...All of us who watched it still remembers it now...
"ONE BAND, ONE SOUND"
If everyone have this line in their heart...
I am 100% sure tat our band can climb back up to the top...

Our teacher dint give up on us...
Y should we give up on ourselves...???
During this camp...
Teacher kept on saying motivating things...
He mentioned one little yet important thing tat we have neglected for the last few years...
"Treat ur bandmates with honesty(dunno how to translate it...so a bit weird)...N dun treat ur bandmates' comment on ur skill like they r attking u...Playing music is playing music...Dun bring ur personal affairs to the band..."
These problems...r real problems in the band...
Most of us dun comment other ppl...If we did...we do it at their backs...
Those who r gossip behind their backs don't noe wad they r wrong at...
So...
We ended up talking abt ppl's bad behind their back...
Both sides ended up with bad relationship...
N no one...has been improving...
One band...One sound...
Our bond should be the greatest...
We stand strong holding hands...
In only one circle...not 2 or 3...
We stand together side by side...
We play together day by day...
We practice together notes by notes...
Tatz wad we r suppose to do...

Teacher always say tat our band is real lazy...or else...real quiet...
Wad we were suppose to do...we dint do...
Was we were suppose to NOT do...we do best...=.=
We r a big band...
Big in both money n people...
But not yet big in name....n time...



I guess tat sums up my holiday...
The last few of my holiday...I stayed at home...Thinking...
The seniors of the band...
The juniors of the band...
I am between senior n junior...
Ready to say goodbye to senior frenz...
Ready to lead my junior frenz...
Frenz...
I ought to be making frenz...
Make our bond stronger...
Make our friendship forever...
Tat way...things would be smooth...
Tat way...One band One sound won't be a problem...
Tat way...Dreams n hopes of our senior won't die...
The seniors told me tat this camp...is the last present from them...
The last present is a real gud year of new juniors...
Making our band's future brighter...

I wanna say a BIG...Thank you....to them...
They have reli put some effort in it...
They don't want to leave us in jeopardy...danger...rite on the edge of a cliff...

A senior told me tat...
After this year...
We would be the ldrs of the band...
It is up to us to make the band btr...
To be a family...

J3 players...
Next year...
We will be S1 players...
Senior...is a big word to carry...
We have a responsibility to carry out...One band One Sound...



One band...One Sound...
We r all in this together...

This is the part 2 of

Now where was I...

Oh ya...Kids!!!

Zhi Ern...special child...touch me heart as well....XD


Another kid who quite made an impression on me is.....
Jaxine...(dunno how to spell...XD...)
A cute little girl...
6yrs old...
I dint rely notice her at Sunday Skul...Cuz...
First thing...i dont rely go there often unless gt children performance...
Second thing...she is rely small...but not rely quiet...juz quiet to crowd...XD

Now...

How did she stick with me until the very last minute of camp...until she went home...(i mean it...XD)
Well...Jungle tracking was part of the camp programme...
Sorta like Parents n Child activity...something like tat...
This little girl went at the "front line"...
I was a helper...i was sent to the "front line" to help out...
So...there was this other girl helper who was taking care of her at first...
But then she nidded help herself in some part so...
I took Jaxine little hand n started taking her tru the trip....
She was so funny...A little slop she oso nid to yell...scream...for nth actually...XD
Then she keep on asking questions like..."Will i fall down...Will i slip...Will i...Will u...Will he..."
She wasn't rely very quiet actually....Alot of questions shooting out frm her...
So...i carried her all tru the way...

Oh ya...on the way my sis gt stung by a bee....poor thing...stung rite on her ear...XD

Back to Jaxine...
She was very very afraid of dogs....
Well...i juz noe her...i dint noe her being so afraid of dogs...
The guide have some dogs helping him scouting the jungle...(the dogs did came in handy...they found a monitor lizard or something like tat...lizard...big ones...)
Jaxine suddenly spotted one of the dogs on the way...
She jumped...then grabbed me...hugging me like a Koala bear hanging on a tree...
Then the girl thing starts...yelling...screaming...
But the dog eventually went somewhere else...XD(gud thing...or she will be hanging on me for the rest of the trip)...

After the jungle track...
She kept on sticking to me....
When we are making our way to the canteen...
We sure muz pass the dogs....dogSSS...lots of em'...
She will have to hang on to somebody until carried to somewhere safe...for her...XD

At nite b4 sleep time...
She even came out n ask me to read a story for her...b4 she sleep....
So cute!!! XD...

On the bus...trip back to Klang...
She sat with me n the other helper(Amerlie) who looked after her the whole camp..
*Amerlie helped Jaxine take her bath at camp...juz like me helping Zhi Ern...Another good helper...XD*
She slept on my lap n Amerlie's lap all the haf way home...
The other haf was alot of questions frm her...XD

Wow...write so many abt Jaxine...XD
Cant help...she too cute...XD...

Another little fella is...

Ivan!!!
Oso a 6 yrs old...
He dint rely stick to me to whole camp...
Only for the first day...

He is very very VERY CUTE...as well....2 big round eyes...XD
He is very very obedient oso...I can say he is the most obedient in the 6 yrs old's...
His mom told me to look after him bcuz he is a little shy...
But me n Ivan were frenz b4 u can sing the ABC song...
One more special thing abt him is...He speaks english...the only 6 yrs old speaking english...XD
He kept talking to me abt wad to do...wad to eat....wad not to do...wad not to eat...XD
He kept talking abt a whole lot of things...some i dont even noe! XD
There was a little funny thing tat happen when he wanted to sleep on the 2nd nite...

I put him to bed...
Helped him to put his blanket...
Tell him to go to sleep...
Then turn away...n started leaving.........when he suddenly point his finger to the roof...

I asked him:"Y are u pointing ur finger at the roof?"
He answered...."Y won't the lizard fall down???"

I cant forget his big round eyes looking at the lizard like it will reli fall down...XD

Oh...those kids...XD
I reli RELI miss them...
I hope i can help out again next year...



Nidda stop here...
its 12 midnite aldi...
tomoro skul starts....
I can only take the memories n start my tiresome dayz again...