Lumière du monde

No...
This is not happening again...
I do not want this...
Please don't...
I have been tortured by those nights back then...
I don't want it again...

A contradicting feeling...
Two sides of my heart pulling apart...
I really don't want to go through this torture again...
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At the brink of the end,
Marks a start of a new year...
Wishes, didn't come true...
Dreams, left with no clue...
Regrets, sure to be there...
Sadness, not to be shared...
Disappointments, we all have...
Covered with bruises, all was bashed...
But need not afraid for the time has come...
To put down the past and say "Hi" to dawn...
New targets and new expectations...
New year filled with new sensations...
Hope to seek and find what's right...
Now is the time to stand out bright...
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There are times...
The times when we'd finally call it a day...
and you get to lie down...
and you get to think...
This is the time...
I guess...

What have I been doing?
I can say out loud that my holidays are far from boring... Instead, I missed the boring days sitting in front of my laptop...
I've been running around...
I've been killing myself...
All for the sake of what?

At this time last year...I didn't get the chance of writing down what I think about my life, because I was at the Youth camp...I have made a prayer at this moment last year...I asked Lord..."What am I to You? What can I give You?" I've already knew the answer...What can I give when everything I have was given by Him? He gave me life...and a purpose with it...So, I continued..."Lord, show me Your wonders...Use me in according to Your will...Strengthen me in every way so that I may be Your disciple...You know what's best for me...and I pray that You'd take hold of my life for I'm willing to let You rule my life...Valley or mountain, I pray that You'd always be with me..."

He is a God always listening...
He listened to my prayer...
and answered it...

2010...
A year too hard to forget...
Actually I can't find any words to describe how this year had been...I can only say that I'm glad that my prayer was answered...A tough year indeed...but with the Lord with me...I fear nothing...
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Starting to get emo real bad~
I really will miss you guys...
I will enjoy this last performance with you all...
I will try to remember every last note we play together...
I will keep these memories tight and secure...
Who knows when we'll have the chance again...





I was right to be stupid that time...
It was the smartest dumb move...
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Tidying my room is one of the hardest thing to do...
'Cause the old memories will be recovered among the chaos...
Then comes the painful part...
When you have to decide whether to keep or throw away...

Cherish, I have...
but the gone can't be retrieve...
and so I've threw away what's left...

Till now, I still can't bear the pain when I'm reminded...
Thought you should be fading away...
But it was only me dozing off...
And there you are when I open my eyes...

Letting go is twice as hard as picking up...
Half way there I guess...
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The end is only a begining of another better end...
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I thought I couldn't make it through...
Not after looking back and realized how far we are apart...

Hope you see that as well...
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The closest stranger...
We have grown to know each other so deep...
Only to find it hard to even say hello to each other...

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Some choose to close their doors...
Seperating themselves from the outside world...
Burying themselves in their own dream world...

Some choose to open their hearts...
Acting foolish acts to random people...
Wasting precious time on useless matters...

Do it if you want...
Do it if you like...
Just be prepared...
To say goodbye...

Farewell dear future~
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