31st Dec 2009...
The last day of 2009...
Before I say something about crossing this year...I would like to update some things...

The last entry was typed at Pinang...where I was complaining about not having my holiday...well...Im glad now that I didn't quit that time...The youth camp "Who Are You?" was a hit...4 dayz 3 nitez of special time at Sufes Campsite, Tapah...I went there for 2 times already...This was the 3rd...So many memories there at Tapah...So many bond made there at Tapah...not to mention so many blood lost there at Tapah (cute little leeches)...This time wasn't any different from the last few times I went there...New bonds were made...New memories in my heart...Fortunately no blood was lost...But I've got a kick at the head thanks to my bro, Dao Yi...Left me with a bongkak juz above my eyes...My image was spoiled bcuz of the drama thanks to Shi Yang...hehe...But it was worth it...everything was worth it...I felt God's grace during the last 4 dayz...I felt Him making us grow...nurturing us...watering us...shining upon us...
Spent some time talking with the Pavillion Bros at the last nite...well...not some time...We spent half of the nite talking about our feelings for the camp...I've learnt some special things of a few ppl at the camp as well...It was worth it for not sleeping until 5am...
A new breakthrough was made at this camp as well...for me...for some others...Praising the Lord...and worshiping Him...in a new way...The first time...I really looked forward to praise Him...I love the feeling of singing out the beautiful words...listen to what the music wants to tell us...

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt...
Who am I, that the bright and morning star would choose to light the way, for my ever wandering heart...
Not because of who I am...
But because of what You've done...
Not because of what I've done...
But because of who You are...
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still You,
Hear me when Im calling,
Lord you catch me when Im falling,
And You told me who I am,
Im Yours.

"Who Are You?" Youth Camp theme song...

I love the sermon given by Pastor Lee Kim Fok also...His great sense of humor and talent of speaking the Lord's word let me know more about myself...Somehow I felt God speaking to me...Some words really hit the bottom of my heart...Those words became encouragement for me to serve Him...to continue to serve Him...
I feel so small...compared to Him...we are not bigger and the smallest seed...yet He listens to us...speaks to us...nurtures us...and cures broken heart...

Words cannot express my feeling right now...
Said goodbye to quite alot of things...
Goodbye to the seniors in our skul band...
Goodbye to J3F best classmates...
Goodbye to the ones leaving Agape...
Goodbye to junior life...
Goodbye to those who joined the "Who Are You?" camp...
And after 12 o'clock...
Going to say goodbye to 2009...

I step into the year or 2009 in a prayer...
I now remember I was praying when I was crossing into this year...
I asked God...for more faith in Him...for the wisdom and strength I need for my exam...I wanted more power, talents, and become stronger...Now when I looked back of wad I have came through on the last day of this year...I see myself smaller...thinking smaller...size smaller...having smaller...Last day of this year...I see myself different than before...Asking for different things...Having different things...Thinking different things...

Crossing into a new year in a new feeling~!
Excited to step into it...
Now I know wad to ask for...
I hope that will come for me...




Watchnight service tonight!!!
Stepping into a new year...Not being crazy with the whole lots shouting out the seconds left to the new decade...but praying for the new year...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
2010!!! HERE I COME!!!

Finally reached Pinang~!
First nite here...not staying at Shi Yang's first...Stayed at Dad's tonite...Maybe we should have some more family time...
Some more holiday...

But work found his seat on the bus with me here...or maybe I brought it here...
The concert over...now here's the camp...There's always things to do...Sometime even the things that wasn't meant for me to do...ended up here...Tired tired tired...




I wan my HOLIDAY~!




Nice view here...from 19th floor I can see quite alot of things...but not at nite...
Feeling sleepy now...Tired tired tired...

Typed this blog in Shi Yang's house...
Me, Joshua, another Joshua, Shi Yang, Dao Yi, and Tze Ee are staying over at Shi Yang's house...
I won't list out the activities we had done...Bcuz some are maybe a bit too crazy...



So...
The 1812 concert is finally over...My heart felt lighter...ONLY a bit...When I found out that I still nidda type out the things for camp...*sigh*
All my dreams of sleeping tru the week is gone...
I feel so tired...Where is my holiday...?



7 dayz to camp~!
3 dayz to Christmas~!
9 dayz to 2010~!

ZZzzzzz....I need my holiday~~~

Got sicked at training camp...Think maybe it's bcuz of the smoke they put at the grave...I don't understand why?! I always hated them doing that...Cuz whenever I got near to those places...My throat turns itchy...then the pain comes...sometimes if worse...asthma attack...haiyo~

Anyway...
Last nite...went to check my UEC exam result...I was soooooooo nervous that time...it was kinda weird...Cuz I wasn't really prepared...I didn't know that last nite(15th Dec) the results will come out...It was suppose to be 16th...means today...Something extraordinary happened before I was told that we can check our results that time...I was praying...kneeling by my bed...After I said "amen" and went back to my laptop...Trish suddenly msn me and told me that we can check our results already...and gave me the link rite there rite then...my laptop was playing "The Adventures of Professor Alex" that time...making the atmosphere even more exciting...I was like...WOW...It was only like yesterday when I took the exam...and now I need to face my own result...I clicked the link...typed in my IC no. & candidate no. (which I almost forgot...thank goodness I kept my exam pass)...The page didn't need much waiting...it almost came out immediately...I closed my eyes immediately and waited...I was waiting for the music to reach the peak and see at my result...lolx...I lost my mind back then...XD
SO....opened eyes...shocked to see...that my result was juz wad I suspected......
Here's the result:
Chinese:::B (sure wan la...no doubt)
BM:::B (this is oso quite sure...I wasn't really good at it since primary)
English:::A (100% sure)
Math:::B (oso 100% sure...I was lucky I didn't get C for it)
Science:::A (This was surprising...XD)
History:::A (Thanks to the beautiful history teacher we got this year...wakaka)
Geography:::A (God blessed me on this subject...)

So...4 A's 3 B's...
Okok only...not as bad as others...oso not as good as others too...
Now...No talking about exam until next year =)




Today...went to church for the drama practice...went there the earliest...cuz grandpa and grandma nidda go out early...Good thing there wasn't any traffic jam...or else if would be my fault grandpa late for work =p
Now...this drama was quite special...interesting...fun...meaningful...fun...crazy...creative...fun...I said "fun" three times == Cuz it's really fun!!! Won't put out the story here...Don't wanna spoil the suprise...Juz bcuz of the ghost that will taunt you for the 4 days of your camp coming out our the box to the right...hehehe...
So...our drama team this time quite small...making us faster to practice (except for some parts tat are really really really funny and we can't stop ourselves from laughing that somehow looks not funny at all or juz simply laugh...mainly the simply laugh would be me)...
The team is:::
Shi Yang ::: as director/writer/background music/actor (oldest brother)
Dao Yi ::: as artist/actor (imaginative person...mostly acting as animals XDXD)
Yi Xuan ::: as artist/actor (second oldest brother)
Dorcas ::: as actor (youngest sister)
Grace ::: as actor (imaginative person...and a very cool character which I can't say now...)
Me ::: as half-day artist (didn't help out much on the things...but I did coloured some things today...)/actor (imaginative person...starting as a cool person...slowly turning into something ridiculous and disgusting...u'll get wad I mean when you watched the drama)
Soo....the team is quite good...the drama is cool...and we can have fun during the drama...
Juz love the feeling of the stage lights shining on me...XD





Tomoro competition ah~~~!
Juz went up to first for only not more than a month...
Then want me to 1 on 1...T.T
I rather die now...and more...body juz recovering from sick...no more breath to use for playing my clarinet...walaowei....
Juz hope I can die beautifully...not hard...

It's been really crazy around these dayz...
My life's crazy...
Systems crazy...
World has gone crazy...
Crazy crazy crazy...
I feel so fuzzed...chaotic...and tired as well...
I wanna have a real holiday...
Maybe a trip to the beach...and juz lie one the warm sands enjoying sun bathing...
Maybe a trip to the waterfalls...and juz let the cooling waters touch my body...
Maybe a trip to the mountains...and juz look at the wonderful creations of God...
Or...
Maybe a whole week...doing nth...but eat...drink...sleep...play...and do business...
I need a real holiday...



12/12/09~14/12/09::::Skul Band Training Camp:::: Not at home from....today....til....monday nite....Blog won't be updated until my return...XD
Now...
I can sleep...

Reality is cruel...
N sometimes I hate facing it...
Why must I bother myself with the future???
I should be living with no worries...juz being a simple kid who goes to schools and attend church every sunday...
Now I regret the choice I've made of not going to Pinang...not going to live with dad...not following him...but instead...I chose to stay back...and not decided to not leave my safety zone and stay away from the unknown...now the unknown found me...
Dad decided to come back for us...
I felt bad for letting him stay so far away from us juz to work and make money for our daily life...
He says he needs to be with us...so tat he can influence us...and to be like a father...
Im so selfish...When I said to dad that I decided to stay here...That would have broken his heart...Im really proud to call him my dad...

Really need to pray for him.......

Now that he have resigned his job...
He is going to be a jobless person starting from 2010...
He can't find any at the moment...
But we'll put all of our faith in God...tats wad we should do...




16th Dec 2009...will get the results of UEC exam...nervous...excited...scared...pressure...happy...sad...angry...digusted...tons of feelings crossing around...juz hope I don't break down on that day...
20th Dec 2009...will get the results of PMR exam...pretty weird for getting the results this late...even more late than the UEC exam...took PMR before taking UEC...but now...UEC results come out earlier than PMR...bit anxious to see my results tho...




It's autumn I think~

Y when everytime I wanna post something nice about TODAY...the time seems to skipped to 11.59pm...Then when I post everything turned to yesterday's stuff...Gosh...don't care...still 9th Dec 2009...

So...Whole day not at home...
Where did I went???
I went to KLCC...
Went there for concert...
And oso the science center...
Quite fun...wif the english Youths...They're really crazy sometimes...
Okay...whole day went like this......
Aunty Doreen took us to church...Then after gathering with the others we went to a mamak near MBS (Malaysia Bible School...should be like tat XD) to get some lunch...fill up our stomach then hit the road to Access 2...PJ...parked the car there...then took the Monorail directly to KLCC...We took the monorail instead of driving all the way there to avoid the traffic (will keep tat in mind)...After we reached KLCC...we headed directly to Petronas Science Center....which we arrived a bit earlier...our tickets bought is suppose to be 3.30pm...we were there 1 hour earlier...nice...so we went to jalan jalan...split into some groups...some went window shopping...some went to bookstore (me)...some really went jalan jalan...I bought a book (Chronicles of Gregor. Last book) which I was looking for quite some time...the bookstore's name was quite funny...wad was it agn??? Kinokuniya or something...Alyssa pronounced into Kinokuniama......
Sooooo...
Science center...touch this touch that...see this see tat...whole lots of things...lazy to type all specific details out...I did remember I smelled some ancient air...which was really dizzying...and weird...
After science center...Went for a light dinner...Macdonalds agn...haize....After the light dinner...me dorcas and bro went to the hall earlier to buy tickets for another concert...Took some time finding the box office...but ended up not buying anything instead we collected a phone number...clever counter...saved alot of time and energy...
Then finally...we went in the hall for some music...Dorcas' shoe can't pass...Kelvin's oso...lolx...
The performers were brilliant...but the listeners ain't really good...some even hum to the song...some more cough in the middle of a slow and quiet song...wanna box him in the face...Oh ya...we forgot to yell encore...which made their sudden leaving from the stage...and coming back a bit weird...okay...really weird...They got a violinist...guitarist...trombone...double bass...pianist...banjo oso i think...and drum set...nice band and excellent music...it was enjoyable and relaxing...
After tat...we all went back to Access 2...to get some dinner...We all were like...wearing formal clothing walking into the hawker market...so stand out...I was all black today...eessh...
Dinner finished...went straight back to church...Then mom fetched us...then reached home...now...sitting in front of the laptop typing this little post out...

Nice day trip...
1 more thing I learnt today...
The english youths are more...together...I mean...they are ALL together...not like us...a pair there...then powerpuff girls over there...backstreet boys here...different gangs...groups...cliche...form within us...We are not ONE...
This is a target that our youths should be heading...
No matter wad time our gathering is now...
No matter how much ppl we have now...
No matter wad condition we're in...
We are still a fellowship...
It really doesn't matter if our time is shorten...Why should we be thinking about how long we want the time to be...We should be thinking how should we be using the time that is now shorter...Efficiency...This is a word we should all learn today...Getting the best result in the shortest time...be efficient...Even tho now our gathering is combined wif the little kids...I mean...I couldn't accept that at first...but...that ain't a problem...it's actually a solution...wad more could be done...??? Continue in the same way and face more problems??? or go the other not so comfortable way to get more solution...We should be thinking about other problems now...like how to break up the bond between different cliches and gangs...like how to become more like a fellowship...revolution must be made...



*Plz...anyone...out there...who has time and money....Plz...contact me at 016-3135613 to get the ticket to Hin Hua High Skul Windband combined concert at 18th Dec...together performing with special guest from Singapore, Nan Yan Junior College...and Johor, Cheong Cheng...Plz...anyone...support us with ur time and money...we return u with the beauty of music...and relaxing tones...RM10 for each...no special discounts!*




Nite nite~

I waited 5 mins for this little window to load finish...
Why is the traffic still so jammed at this kinda time!!!
SOOOOoooooo lagggggg.....
I hate it when it lags....
I was about to wish Shao Wei happy birthday de...before the day ends...when the com started to lag....haiz....
Haiz...
Shao Wei...
Late wishes...
Happy Birthday...
SOoo lucky we ain't going to skul to buy books yesterday...(past midnite...8th Dec today)

Bloggy...haven't touched u for a few dayz...busy...is all i can say...
Not in the mood of updating now...
Maybe Im too exhausted...
Think I'll update next time...



*Going to MPO at WED!!! Excited to see our own country's orchestra!!!

Not coming on to blog often these few days...
Skul band practice gets more and more tiresome...
Both physical and mental strength is losing...
Haiz~

Skul band practice...
Pretty sums it up for wad I've been doing the few dayz back...
In the end...
My teeth kinda moved...moved back to where I started to get my bracelets...I wasted the effort of the bracelet in a few days of practices...the bracelet used 2 months to pull it in...and juz puff...my teeth went back to where it started...
Dang...now I scare my bracelets can only be taken down after I graduate...

The camp progress is...well...acceptable...
Finally...I can hear the new drama's storyline we will be doing at the camp...Nice~
Last nite went for the meeting...
I don't think we are really good at time control...
We should actually start the meeting at 8pm...but we all were late...and it only started at 8.30pm...bad...
We should be able to finish all things that are needed to be discussed by 10pm...actually 2 hours is already quite long time...I hate long meetings...bad oso...
This is a serious problem...with no efficiency...how can we serve God betta??? I mean...we shouldn't be wasting time running in circles...This is God's work we're talking about...no child play here...
What is a meeting actually??? A meeting...is actually a time when we all gather around...and SHOW our progress...DISCUSS on serious matters that needed everyones opinion...and NOT...DOING all the work at the meeting...THINKING about what you wanna do...TALKING rubbish...RUNNING IN CIRCLES...
Hate to say this...but...I really think that our AJK this time isn't really organized...our meetings aren't conducted according to the agenda...We were discussing things randomly...what comes in our mind we juz shoot out...well.......IT'S DAMN HARD TO RECORD DOWN THINGS WHEN THE THINGS JUZ FLY AROUND...It's really frustrating doing the meeting reports for this...A whole long meeting of 3 hours (our meeting started 8.30pm...ended 11pm)...and the meeting report is somehow not full like our time used...EFFICIENCY...we need to be fast and productive...We should be energetic when doing God's work...I believe God put us together for a purpose...I myself learnt some things...I trust that others must have gained some experience...



Will be pianist for the whole day this sunday...Wah...About 16 songs to practice...10 camp songs...6 others for the service...It's good to be back serving the Lord!!!

Last nite didn't come to my blog to update...
Bcuz I accidentally drank pear+orange juice...But the main guilty fruit is pear...
I nvr heard anyone allergic to fruits...
Fruits should be nice to everyone...
We should actually eat it everyday...
But my body seems to don't work that way...
Only to pears........

It was a painful experience...And I nvr wanna go tru that agn...
I know most have tried having their stomach full of air...Full like a balloon...
Well...
That's wad happened when I drank that juice down to my stomach...
In not more than 10 mins...
It was filled up...
And stayed that way...for...about...2 hours I think...
The pain grew gradually...slowly...
I was like...Oooo...Ahhh....then collapsed...
Forced myself to drink hot water...no use...
Went to toilet...no use...
Bath in hot water....no use...
Lie on my bed...more pain...
Play games to distract myself...Couldn't play it attentively...
Use heater to heat up my stomach...Need another bath...
Then I thought of going to the emergency center...But then it would juz be a waste of time...Since they'll only ask you to sit there then wait for the air to come out itself...
Then that's wad I've done...
Lie on my bed...
Concentrating on my daydream...
Trying to sleep in anyway...I even tried counting sheeps...LOL
Eventually and luckily...
I ended up in dreamland...Zzz
So this is the adventure of Joseph eating pears...




1812 is nearing...
Excited...
My flying notes...haiz...