Reality is cruel...
N sometimes I hate facing it...
Why must I bother myself with the future???
I should be living with no worries...juz being a simple kid who goes to schools and attend church every sunday...
Now I regret the choice I've made of not going to Pinang...not going to live with dad...not following him...but instead...I chose to stay back...and not decided to not leave my safety zone and stay away from the unknown...now the unknown found me...
Dad decided to come back for us...
I felt bad for letting him stay so far away from us juz to work and make money for our daily life...
He says he needs to be with us...so tat he can influence us...and to be like a father...
Im so selfish...When I said to dad that I decided to stay here...That would have broken his heart...Im really proud to call him my dad...

Really need to pray for him.......

Now that he have resigned his job...
He is going to be a jobless person starting from 2010...
He can't find any at the moment...
But we'll put all of our faith in God...tats wad we should do...




16th Dec 2009...will get the results of UEC exam...nervous...excited...scared...pressure...happy...sad...angry...digusted...tons of feelings crossing around...juz hope I don't break down on that day...
20th Dec 2009...will get the results of PMR exam...pretty weird for getting the results this late...even more late than the UEC exam...took PMR before taking UEC...but now...UEC results come out earlier than PMR...bit anxious to see my results tho...




It's autumn I think~