31st Dec 2009...
The last day of 2009...
Before I say something about crossing this year...I would like to update some things...

The last entry was typed at Pinang...where I was complaining about not having my holiday...well...Im glad now that I didn't quit that time...The youth camp "Who Are You?" was a hit...4 dayz 3 nitez of special time at Sufes Campsite, Tapah...I went there for 2 times already...This was the 3rd...So many memories there at Tapah...So many bond made there at Tapah...not to mention so many blood lost there at Tapah (cute little leeches)...This time wasn't any different from the last few times I went there...New bonds were made...New memories in my heart...Fortunately no blood was lost...But I've got a kick at the head thanks to my bro, Dao Yi...Left me with a bongkak juz above my eyes...My image was spoiled bcuz of the drama thanks to Shi Yang...hehe...But it was worth it...everything was worth it...I felt God's grace during the last 4 dayz...I felt Him making us grow...nurturing us...watering us...shining upon us...
Spent some time talking with the Pavillion Bros at the last nite...well...not some time...We spent half of the nite talking about our feelings for the camp...I've learnt some special things of a few ppl at the camp as well...It was worth it for not sleeping until 5am...
A new breakthrough was made at this camp as well...for me...for some others...Praising the Lord...and worshiping Him...in a new way...The first time...I really looked forward to praise Him...I love the feeling of singing out the beautiful words...listen to what the music wants to tell us...

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt...
Who am I, that the bright and morning star would choose to light the way, for my ever wandering heart...
Not because of who I am...
But because of what You've done...
Not because of what I've done...
But because of who You are...
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still You,
Hear me when Im calling,
Lord you catch me when Im falling,
And You told me who I am,
Im Yours.

"Who Are You?" Youth Camp theme song...

I love the sermon given by Pastor Lee Kim Fok also...His great sense of humor and talent of speaking the Lord's word let me know more about myself...Somehow I felt God speaking to me...Some words really hit the bottom of my heart...Those words became encouragement for me to serve Him...to continue to serve Him...
I feel so small...compared to Him...we are not bigger and the smallest seed...yet He listens to us...speaks to us...nurtures us...and cures broken heart...

Words cannot express my feeling right now...
Said goodbye to quite alot of things...
Goodbye to the seniors in our skul band...
Goodbye to J3F best classmates...
Goodbye to the ones leaving Agape...
Goodbye to junior life...
Goodbye to those who joined the "Who Are You?" camp...
And after 12 o'clock...
Going to say goodbye to 2009...

I step into the year or 2009 in a prayer...
I now remember I was praying when I was crossing into this year...
I asked God...for more faith in Him...for the wisdom and strength I need for my exam...I wanted more power, talents, and become stronger...Now when I looked back of wad I have came through on the last day of this year...I see myself smaller...thinking smaller...size smaller...having smaller...Last day of this year...I see myself different than before...Asking for different things...Having different things...Thinking different things...

Crossing into a new year in a new feeling~!
Excited to step into it...
Now I know wad to ask for...
I hope that will come for me...




Watchnight service tonight!!!
Stepping into a new year...Not being crazy with the whole lots shouting out the seconds left to the new decade...but praying for the new year...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
2010!!! HERE I COME!!!