Emotion...
Y is there emotion...
Emotions are linked to feelings...
Feelings are linked to thinking...

Y is there happy...
Y is there sad...
Y is there anger...
Y is there bored...
Y is there scare...
Why?!
It's there...
From the begining...
Till the end...
It will still be there...
Feelings affects our actions...
Feelings affects our words...
Feelings affects quite much thing....
Sometimes...We should follow our feeling to do something...
Sometimes...We shouldn't follow our feeling...but control it...
Control feelings...
Or should I say...
Control emotions...
Basically ...EQ...

I was following the plan...tat I have made...teaching the choir...juz according to the plan...But...I couldn't really get into the situation...Cuz there's something bothering me...My emotions...I was desperate...for nothing...Maybe there was something...but I couldn't sense it...I saw the emotions of my singers...Some of them eager to sing...But some of them eager to give the opinions...their way...their music...I wasn't really not fond of it...But...I was standing in front...It was quite disrespectful...I learn to control my emotions...pressing it down...listening...TRYING DESPERATELY to listen to every last advice given...It was difficult...With only 2 ears...N one big mind tat already have the picture of wad should I do...My music...Was continuously said...said...said...n said...My whole picture of the music...has totally ruined...I lost my OWN direction...So I stop the first session earlier...
It was a gud thing tat my art teacher was there...Well...He was into arts...Music is a kind of art as well...juz different...One more simillar thing is he is a teacher...I am oso teaching...After listening to his advice...I feel a bit more relief...I was totally not in the mood of eating...chating...Luckily Hui Min asked me to go to the band room...to stress out...She was a listener...A few advice given oso...*Im really still a learning conductor...About beautiful conducting...Tat should be about experience*....
I made a prayer to God...Asked Him to open my mind...Inspire me...N most of all...Be with me...All the time...
Second session started off smoothly...I was really into it already...Juz only when Shao Wei makes a mistake...The ending I made was a bit slow...So I called Hui Min to make it faster...Then suddenly...XX has something to say...XX says tat it should be ''something''...I was really trying to listen to her...Trying to understand wad was she saying...With all the noise and confusion... A misunderstanding occured...I still rmb I even shouted to quiet the choir...juz to listen...But then she was already angry already...FOR NTH???!!!
Gud thing at tat moment the bell sorta gone rite at the perfect moment...I walked to XX's seat and tried to understand wad really was she saying...But all XX said was.......
"You always act like the pro wan...N dun ever listen to other opinions..."
Those words really stabbed me...
I was following my own plan...
I was following my way of music...
Juz being me...Is tat a wrong?!?!
Frenz told me not to bother...My own mother oso told me to do tat...
Someone even told me...tat now tat Im the conductor...I should BE the conductor...Without ONE person giving the main ideas...The situation would be more chaotic...

Stick to the plan...Joe...
Juz stick to it...