I'm tired of this...





Where have you been?





You should have been with us right from the start...






And yet everything we have worked hard for...





Now dissappeared...





And "You" !






Who appears to be the one to be stirring all the trouble...





Please leave us alone...





"You"! The one preventing us from reaching the high heavens...





Give us peace~!

Today's Agape we had an interesting activity...
Sharon got us all acting out creative things...Although some not completed...but I can see that everyone have put their effort into it...and the result was quite astonishing...
Thanks to Sharon who had gave such a creative activity for us to do...






Actually...
Situations like this...
Can always be there...
If we are really having a fellowship...
Which means...we gather together in the name of the Lord...
Which means...we do things as what the Lord has told us...
Which means...we love one another (awww~ )

Which leads to a happy little fellowship...







Have joy when suffering...
Have faith when persecuted...
For in Him...
Who strenthens us...
We can do anything...

He let me learn things through different ways everyday...
In good of in bad times...
Joyful or suffer...
He will still show me He's the boss around...
And no one messes with the boss...
=)

Sometimes...
It's worth a thousand tries before you can be successful in anything...




Even how hard this battle is going to be...
We will fight on...
Even how hot the sun is going to be...
We will stand up...
Even how tough you guys are...
We will not back down...

We will throw 1000 times...
We will run 1000 meters...
We will use what ever God has planted in us...




It's not that I give up...
It's not that I'm scared...
It's nothing about me actually...
It's not about me losing hope...
It's not about me looking down...
It's about the others actually...








Notes can be reach in a thousand ways...
When you can't reach the note you desire...
You don't always have to find another note...
You just have to find the perfect way to hit it perfectly...
=)

A nice song by the Carpenters...




Why do birds
Suddenly appear,
Everytime
You are near...

Just like me,
They long to be,
Close to you...

Why do stars
Fall down from the sky,
Everytime
You walk by...

Just like me,
They long to be,
Close to you...

On the day that you were born
The angels got together,
And decided to create a dream come true...
So they sprinkle moondust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes so blue...

That is why
All the girls in town...
Follow you,
All around...

Just like me
They long to be
Close to you.....





Why suddenly this song???
A big lesson to learn...
Justin brought us to his sister's wedding to perform on stage...Our 2nd time together...playing music...to bunch of peoples...
The thing is...There was another band there...An official, genuine, and real~~~~ PRO band was there...Playing about 20 songs altogether...They have a keyboard, guitarist, and drummer...pretty much like us....but they have a singer also...which made their band look better...And whats more spectacular about them is their keyboard-player plays the piano and bass at the same time...making the whole band sounding like 5 men band...

To sum it up...
They were the pros....




Why this song...?
Bcuz they played this song so perfectly...Justin and me (and Dong Wei probably, cuz he was scared like shit XD) was stunned by their performance...8 years of experience the band had...Ours...maybe 3 months old...and we were on the same stage they stood on...

The ending was....well...





Ladies and gentlemen...
Close to you...
A reminder
A target
A goal
For us...






*It's been a long long time since I updated my blog... I think I've lost the great sensation of typing my feelings...*sigh...




Choir ~ 7 days
Basketball ~ 2 days

4 days of band camp...
1 night of performance...
3 days of Taman Negara...
After a tiring week...I have finally found the chance to sit down in front of my beloved laptop and type in this blog...
=)





The 4 days of camp was...well...tiring...exhausting...killing...But thanks to the Almighty God...I made it through...and better...everyone else made it through too...(Thank God XD)
I think without the many many help of many many people/friends/teacher/etc...this camp & concert & exchange can't succeed... So I wanna grab this chance here...to say a big big THANK YOU~! I can't list out the names of everyone that helped because there were too many... Sry guys... =p
Still...thank you~!





The 2nd performance of the 3 musketeers...Xuan Jing...hope this may be a very very important experience to you...Next time...please don't ask us to perform together with another great band...unless we are good enough...I don't wanna die in front of another band... T.T
But to sum it up...we were pretty good up there...Great job guys~!






3 days of close contact with the oldest rainforest in the world... Do you know...that we, the malaysians have the oldest rainforest in our country??? It was a spectacular place...On the first night we went for night jungle trekking... Saw some scary spiders...scorpians...and even some species that the guide don't even know (somemore found by me...hehe)...2nd day morning...We climb Bukit Tele***** (Sorry...weird name...forgotten)... the whole length is 2.5 km...Grandpa and grandma rest half way through cause it was too hard for them to climb...We saw God's wonders on the the peak...although not high enough...we can still enjoy the breeze together...
Then we head to the canopy walk...The bridge was all 40 feet up high from the ground... After lunch...we went for cave exploring...At first I was only expecting a really big cave with shallow water and little light...Only one from what I've expected is in the cave...There wasn't much light in the cave...but the water was deep enough to make half your body wet...and the the cave small enough to make you crawl on the floor... And what's more spectacular is...There were BATS...hundreds of them...hanging upside down above our heads... At first I'm a bit scare of them...Afraid that they will all fly at the same time and attack us...But after a few minutes...I just treat them as rats...with wings...They were quite cute actually...XD

But their shit wasn't as cute as them...Shit all over the floor...ceiling...wall...it's EVERYWHERE~! Remember what I said just now? We have to crawl at some points when the ceiling was so low...and on the floor...we have shit water...the ceiling covered with droppings...the whole scene...urgh*

Not to mention the smell... ARGH~!

After the cave...we went "rapid shooting" (that's what I've heard)... We were all splashed wet on the speed boat... So refreshing after the horrible "shitty" experience in the cave....Then we went to visit the orang asli living inside Taman Negara...Learnt some survival skills...shoot some photos...and off we go for dinner...

2nd night we didn't do anything...But I played a different version of mafia with the kids... OMG...






And at last...I'm back to the comfort of my home...In front of my lovely computer...with the cooling air-cond...listening to relaxing music...
Ahhh~~~~

Tomorrow be the start of the first camp I organized...
I know I'm really really bad at this...All those unfinished knots lying around...Wanna apologize to EVERYONE first for not giving my 100% effort into this...making this camp looking not nice...But now we have still reached this far and there is no way we can turn back...God bless me...and us...





Won't be around for 4 days...
*sigh...




Day 5...
Bamboo is still waiting lor.... =)

Unequal beats, my heart is having...
Depressing thoughts, my mind is thinking...
Uneasy stress, my body is taking...




Where have you guys been to? Can't find you guys anywhere...Phone ya all also didn't answer... T.T






Day 4...
What can I say...?
We are only one day nearer...

Spent half of me day at school... Reached there at approximately 8.30am to do the booklet for our camp...It's a really cute and nice little booklet made by Si Wei and Zhi Qi...Thanks for doing a great work......After that...Played basketball...Went somewhere...and threw my whole afternoon away doing useless things actually... =.=!





Stress?
Pressure?
Worries?
Carrying weights I can't bear...But I just can't put down this weight...I know deep down in my heart that if I really take on this thing...I will have to throw away some other things...and this will be a very hard thing to carry...So lets just carry it together...shall we?







T.T
Slowly dragging...dragging...
Feel like sleeping and not wake up until that day =p

Today's marching...About 8 band mates fainted...and most of them (If I remembered correctly) are boys... ==!!!





So many sudden things happening on me...I even had a nightmare when I took my nap...It's so real...and so weird...like it's telling me something...Ah forget it...The mind can really play games at you when you are so depressed...After this week....I really wanna take the whole week off...

First stop next week...will be "Taman Negara"...The long awaited family trip...It has been a really really long time I haven't spent my holidays with my family...LONG time...Almost every holiday in the past...I was either occupied by band practices...or chuch drama...Now I get a 3 days trip...having a special time out in the nature...

Second checkpoint...will be Sunway =) muz play like crazy...cuz we aren't meeting for a week and can't chat too... Bamboo misses panda...

Third checkpoint...Still don't know what...still don't know when...still don't know who...So feel free to take me with you wherever you goin' =)








Day 2...
I now know what you mean of the time so long...The time is ticking so slow for now...T.T

Words by words...
Minutes by minutes...
Slowly slipping away from my hands...
Signifiying the leaving of you...
And now....you did....
Only a few more days panda =)





@#$%&*....
Plz don't do this to me...
I can't handle such weight at the same time...I will really crumble...It's so hard to....and so...argh~! This is almost mental torture for me...T.T