No...This is not happening again...I do not want this...Please don't...I have been tortured by those nights back then...I don't want it again...A contradicting feeling...Two sides of my heart pulling apart...I really don't want to go through this torture again

At the brink of the end,Marks a start of a new year... Wishes, didn't come true...Dreams, left with no clue...Regrets, sure to be there...Sadness, not to be shared... Disappointments, we all have...Covered with bruises, all was bashed...But need not afraid for the time has come...To put down the past and say "Hi" to dawn... New targets and new expectations...New year filled

There are times...The times when we'd finally call it a day...and you get to lie down...and you get to think...This is the time...I guess...What have I been doing?I can say out loud that my holidays are far from boring... Instead, I missed the boring days sitting in front of my laptop...I've been running around...I've been killing myself...All for the sake of what?At this

Starting to get emo real bad~I really will miss you guys...I will enjoy this last performance with you all...I will try to remember every last note we play together...I will keep these memories tight and secure...Who knows when we'll have the chance again...I was right to be stupid that time...It was the smartest dumb move

Tidying my room is one of the hardest thing to do...'Cause the old memories will be recovered among the chaos...Then comes the painful part...When you have to decide whether to keep or throw away...Cherish, I have...but the gone can't be retrieve...and so I've threw away what's left...Till now, I still can't bear the pain when I'm reminded...Thought you should be fading away...But

The end is only a begining of another better end

I thought I couldn't make it through...Not after looking back and realized how far we are apart...Hope you see that as well

The closest stranger...We have grown to know each other so deep...Only to find it hard to even say hello to each other

Some choose to close their doors...Seperating themselves from the outside world...Burying themselves in their own dream world...Some choose to open their hearts...Acting foolish acts to random people...Wasting precious time on useless matters...Do it if you want...Do it if you like...Just be prepared...To say goodbye...Farewell dear futu

Know why my mind is so jammed...Sometimes, I wanna lie to myself...That you have your reasons to do this to me...Sometimes, I just give up...And put myself in a devastated situation... If only I could ask you...If only you would answer...Maybe it wouldn't be such an headache now...But you chose not to let me know...I couldn't understand...maybe I'm meant to understand you...Sometimes,

The answer's yes...After what you've gave me...I don't know how to face myself again...You've hurt me not in one single way...But continuous blow kept on coming...This is not at all...How we thought it was supposed to be...And nothing we can say...nothing we can do...Can take away the pain...the pain of losing you...But...We can cry with hope...We can grieve with hope...Cause

I can only imagine,what it will be like...when I walk by your side...I can only imagine,what my eyes will see...when your face is before me...I can only imagine...Surrounded by your glory, what will my heart feel?Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe will I be still?Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall?Will I sing hallelujah? Will I I be able to speak at

I shouldn't be sitting here actually...but I know I can't sleep if I don't do this...Well...things just ain't going the way it should be...or maybe the way I THINK it should be...Once again I asked myself...Should I torture myself with all of these? I could just close my eyes and act like nothing ever happened...I am worned down and torned to pieces...I keep on telling myself

Days...came nearer...I still remember you know? When we cherrish the days not seperated...I know...There's no way turning back...and no point as well...What can I do? After this few hours...we might as well become real strangers...But day after day...You remain hovering in my mind...Hanging by a thread...Clutching on to the memories...Day after day...I asked myself...the same

It didn't left me at all...Yes...It hurts real bad...Listening to all the words about it...Finding answers to reply the questions about it...This is really killing...honestly...Why?Am I really injured that bad?I hate this feeling...and putting salt on it ain't helping anything...I may put on a smile...But inside...I'm crying for help...I'm dying for someone to save me...I'm

What day is it...and in what month...This clock never seem so alive...I can't keep up...and I can't back down...I've been losing so much time...All of the things...that I want to say...Just aren't coming out right...I'm tripping inwards...you got my head spinning...I don't know where to go from here...Cause it's you and me and all of the people...With nothing to do...nothing

Argh~! Nothing coming outta my mind...Words don't form...Sentences don't come together...Not to mention a whole bunch gibberish is also hard to pump out now...Well...at least SOME came out...Why do I run out of inspiration sometimes?There are a few reasons...First, I'm very dumb...I need a lot of time to torture myself before I can form out something...Second, I'm very blessed...Bad

No words from the heart recently...Everything was just plain silence...I like to keep it that way actually...It gives me room to think...It gives me space to ponder...Wondering around in your own mind for too long can be bad sometimes...You start to become unrealistic...Your dreams starts to intertwine with your life...and when that happens...things can get a bit messy...Although

Just when you think everything's fine...Your whole world collapses...and you found out that you're living a dream...Painfully...opened your eyes...Violently...reality hits you...Your heart drops and breaks...When you've found out that you're no match for anything...When you've discover that you're too weak for everything...Unwillingly, you woke up from your dream...and saw

All to You...I give it all to You

I am not a child now, I can take care of myself....I musn't let them down now, musn't let them see me cry....I'm fine....I'm fine....I try, but it's so hard to believe...I try, but I can't see what you see...I try...My whole world is changing, I don't know where to turn.I can't leave you waiting, but I can't stay and watch the city burn;I try and try to understand the distance

Found alot of me old friends from primary school! =)Don't know why, but it felt kinda weird seeing all my friends this old already...I still think they are the kid in primary uniform...Now...Everyone has walk back from seperate road...coming back together to share what they have seen, heard, touched, felt, experienced...It's nice finding all of them...I like the old days

See the mountains, feel the breeze...Watch the sun rise, count the stars...Romans 1:20For the invisible things of Him from the creation from the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead; So that they are without excuse.There's no excuse to deny the greatness of our Almighty Lord when we enjoy His creation.Up a

Looking at this blog that is almost dead is like looking at a mirror...It's disastrous...the view of my thoughts...It's chaotic...The sleepless nights left me...I've gotten too obsessed in lingering in my dreams...When I can run away from reality... When I can see my dream life...Yes...it is a fact that I'm escaping from reality...for it hurts too much to see so many sorrows

Sunrise, Sunset,No more regret.Day pass, Night flies,Choices, I've made...*******It's time to change the direction...And head back to where I've started...Step by step pulling me back...Strength by strength turning me around...I will not be distracted...I will not be affected...I will not be misguided...I will not be offended...I will not be defeated...I will not be dependant...

A forced smile...A fake laugh...No...I'm not okay...If there were no words,No way to speak.I would still hear you..If there were no tearsNo way to feel insideI'd still feel for you...And even if the sun refused to shineEven if romance ran out of rhymeI'll be standing hereUntil the end of time...Let no moment be a waste...Let no colours turn to grey...No...I'm not fragile...I'm

Smile tho' your heart is aching,Smile even though it's breaking.When there are clouds in the sky...You'll get by...If you smile through your pain and sorrowSmile and maybe tomorrowYou'll see the sun come shining through...for you...Light up your face with gladness,Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,Altho' a tear may be ever so near,That's the time you must keep on trying,Smile...What's

It's time to add another number to me age...Another year older...More weights to put on...And I hope more faith I will have=)Crossed into this age in a special way...This is what I call..."Grow Up You Dumb"

Countdown anyone??

No...Faith is losing...No...Heart is sinking...No...Hand is trembling...No...Tears are dropping...The rainbow is behind the storm...But when will this storm e

One Band...One Sound...Where is it now.

I miss...Those days...Sometimes...Someone...And the same question keeps popping up...Why?I don't understand... ... ... ...It rains in your bedroom...Everything is wrong...It rains when you're here...It rains when you're gone...This is not happening

Once again...The tiny sound of my fingers skipping upon the keysRings in my ear...Even with my earphones onEach last jingling of the keyboardCan be heard over the music...Feel the gentle wind from my fan above...And the silent night falling deeper...deeper...So quiet...I can hear my own heart beating...In the rhythm of uncertainty...Unsure of what the night leads to...Or what

I don't know if I've heard it correctly...If it is...Then...=(How many days...How many chances...I finally felt how those people felt before...When we were all fighting for the 10 minutes' stage lights...When we were all making the music that not only touches the audiences...But most of all...Our own hearts...I miss those days...When all of us...Everyone of us...Put our heart

Feel the warmth...That only summer breezes can bring...Sweet little notes of spring begin...Nothing to fear...Touch the cold...That only winter snow can bring...Brown yellow leaves of autumn falling...Nothing to feel...Smell the air...That only happiness can bring...One little door of future opening...Nothing to find...Sense the wind...That only depression can bring...Pure

More injuriesYou will getIf you do this...And that's why our eyes are put in front...To face our future...And not our past...I have chosen...And so it be...And then it rains in your bedroomEverything is wrongIt rains when you're hereAnd it rains when you're gone

Got a long way ahead...And I'm not afraid

Want to ask...but don't know how...Want to say...but don't know what...Want to blame...but don't know who...Want to cry...but don't know why...Want to die...but don't know when...When will that happen...?I hope it never will

Colors fade to gray...Every precious moment's now a waste...Hoping it would pass...The red light starts to flash...It's time to wait...And the black keys...Never look so beautiful...And a perfect rainbow never seems so dull...I'd rather be myself...Linger among the black keys

Like oil upon your feetLike wine for you to drinkLike water from my heartI'll pour my love on youIf love is like perfumeI'll lavish mine on youTill every drop is goneI'll pour my love on you...Is there a wayTo show the passion in my heartTo express how truly great I think you areMy dearest friendLord this is my desireTo pour my love on you...What happened...? Between us

Please...Don't do this to me

Do you know what crying inside feels like?Why...Have I become like this

Another blow...Then I think I'm done...Finally completed creative writing... Such a dreadful task to do...I'm not a sad-ending writer...No matter how sorrowful the content is...The ending of my story...Is always happily ever after

Although we lost...We ain't going to lose our spirits too...I know I can't ask you guys to become professionals so suddenly...I can only ask you guys to fight side by side with me...And that's what I want...And that's what I got...Thank you guys~There's still a volleyball inter-class competition...Let's not forget that...Hehe

That's the word to describe...Morning til night...Your essences drifting...High up in the air...Eventually dissappearing...At last leaving traces of nothing...RIght from that moment...The rain came pouring back down...Not showing what I really feel

That's the word to describe...Morning til night...Your essences drifting...High up in the air...Eventually dissappearing...At last leaving traces of nothing...Right from that moment...The rain came pouring back down...Not showing what I really feel

In the end...I was marvelled by Your power once more...You picked my heart strings so easily...And brought me through Your wonders...Thank You~Ask you something...Yeah~Can I ask you this question...?Sure, go ahead...I want to question you...Uh~ what question?Can you answer me this question?Erm...and your question is?My question is: "Can I ask you a question?"And my answer

Darkness fall...People snores...Silence stays...All the way...Where can I...Let my sigh...Loom above the shadows...Clock still ticks...People sleeps...Minutes passed...Sleep I must...When will I...See my cry...Fly above the meadow...It is You Lord...That lightened up my ways...In times of desperate feelings...or gloomy day...You make me smile in ways I can't imagine...Unto

I'm tired of this...Where have you been?You should have been with us right from the start...And yet everything we have worked hard for...Now dissappeared...And "You" !Who appears to be the one to be stirring all the trouble...Please leave us alone..."You"! The one preventing us from reaching the high heavens...Give us peac

Night...When everything that breathesSteps into another dimension of their own...Some went to paradise...Some went to hell...Some hopes to linger longer...Some wishes that this is just a dream...Night...When not everything that breathesWere doing the things that they should...Some continued to work into the deep dark night...Some were trying to get through the night...Some

Today's Agape we had an interesting activity...Sharon got us all acting out creative things...Although some not completed...but I can see that everyone have put their effort into it...and the result was quite astonishing...Thanks to Sharon who had gave such a creative activity for us to do...Actually...Situations like this...Can always be there...If we are really having a

Sometimes...It's worth a thousand tries before you can be successful in anything...Even how hard this battle is going to be...We will fight on...Even how hot the sun is going to be...We will stand up...Even how tough you guys are...We will not back down...We will throw 1000 times...We will run 1000 meters...We will use what ever God has planted in us...It's not that I give

A nice song by the Carpenters...Why do birdsSuddenly appear,EverytimeYou are near...Just like me,They long to be,Close to you...Why do starsFall down from the sky,EverytimeYou walk by...Just like me,They long to be,Close to you...On the day that you were bornThe angels got together,And decided to create a dream come true...So they sprinkle moondust in your hair of goldAnd

4 days of band camp...1 night of performance...3 days of Taman Negara...After a tiring week...I have finally found the chance to sit down in front of my beloved laptop and type in this blog...=)The 4 days of camp was...well...tiring...exhausting...killing...But thanks to the Almighty God...I made it through...and better...everyone else made it through too...(Thank God XD)I

Tomorrow be the start of the first camp I organized...I know I'm really really bad at this...All those unfinished knots lying around...Wanna apologize to EVERYONE first for not giving my 100% effort into this...making this camp looking not nice...But now we have still reached this far and there is no way we can turn back...God bless me...and us...Won't be around for 4 days...*sigh...Day

Unequal beats, my heart is having...Depressing thoughts, my mind is thinking...Uneasy stress, my body is taking...Where have you guys been to? Can't find you guys anywhere...Phone ya all also didn't answer... T.TDay 4...What can I say...?We are only one day nearer

Spent half of me day at school... Reached there at approximately 8.30am to do the booklet for our camp...It's a really cute and nice little booklet made by Si Wei and Zhi Qi...Thanks for doing a great work......After that...Played basketball...Went somewhere...and threw my whole afternoon away doing useless things actually... =.=!Stress?Pressure?Worries?Carrying weights I

Today's marching...About 8 band mates fainted...and most of them (If I remembered correctly) are boys... ==!!!So many sudden things happening on me...I even had a nightmare when I took my nap...It's so real...and so weird...like it's telling me something...Ah forget it...The mind can really play games at you when you are so depressed...After this week....I really wanna take

Words by words...Minutes by minutes...Slowly slipping away from my hands...Signifiying the leaving of you...And now....you did....Only a few more days panda =)@#$%&*....Plz don't do this to me...I can't handle such weight at the same time...I will really crumble...It's so hard to....and so...argh~! This is almost mental torture for me...

Very very very busy...Very very very stress...Very very very confused...But still...I can't resist the temptation of joining the "Teacher & Student Choir Competition"... I just love playing with music too much...This be the song we're playing =)Always there...A nice song writen by Rolf Rovland...Although not sure who is the target in his song...But we can always direct

At last...I've not fail in chinese this time =)Although it is a mark not so pretty to look at...but for me...That's my effort for it...Until I gotten every last subject...I will not post it online first... =pWanna thank someone for spending a night and a burnt finger to do such a...Wonderful...Amazing...Astonishing...Superb...Fantastic...Brilliant...and so many more expressions

I can do anything through Him who strenthens me...After exam...It's the start of the thrilling round(s) of stress...pressure...and whole lots of FUN~!Adui...So "wordless" these days...Yet I feel a urge to yell out a bunch of things...The feeling to scream into my pillow...The momentum to spit out my feelings...Just not today..

Believing as I do that man in the distant future will be a far more perfect creature than he now is, it is an intolerable thought that he and all other sentient beings are doomed to complete annihilation after such long-continued slow progress.Charles Darwin. Are man becoming a more perfect creature? Are we heading towards a brighter future?Evidence proofs that we are not

Why now...?Why you...?Why me...?Why her...?Why him...?My emotions are being dragged by things I don't wanna hear...My heart is holding up weights I don't wanna bear...Why throw it at me...When I should be having my time with someone else...Why this kind of time...When I want to spend it with someone else...When you see this...I hope you know that I'm a human being as well...A

One with a thinking not matured...shouldn't put him/herself into the situation of mature matters...Matters like relationships...Relationships like between 2 persons...2 persons like a man and a woman...Please know that love isn't just a feeling...It's actually NOT a feeling...Not one bit...Not one freckle... Love...Is EXPRESSED by feelings...Don't be blinded by the EMOTIONS

What shall I write???Anyone have any idea???Maybe I should be studying lol

I'm confident...but I shall not have high hopes...Not matter what the result is...I will accept it... =)Because...Everything that happens...has it's purpose...It's so near...and yet I'm still sitting here...facing my laptop...Gambateh to everyone in EXAM~! ! !WOoOhooO

Was suppose to be happy these few days...I WAS happy these few days...until today...Everything in my mind seem to have gone wrong...I feel so weak doing everything...I feel so wrong doing anything...It's like every move I take will lead me to disaster...And today...There's finally one move that hit me right on the face...Stabbed my heart...And kicked me at the butt before

Sitting by your side...Listening to your words of encouragements...Feeling your love towards me...Spending your precious time with me...Sharing your stories with me...Doing your best to nurture me...Working your hardest to take care of me...Gave up your favourite hobbies to be by my side...Putting your height down to me...Just because you love me...Love, you've given...Care,

I'll be there someday,I can go the distances...I'll find my way,If I can be strong...I know every mile,Will be worth my smile...When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth...Would care to know my name...Would care to feel my hurt...Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star...Would choose to light the way...For my every wandering heart...Not because of who I am...But because of what You've done...Not because of what I've done...But because of who You are...I am a flower quickly fading...Here today and

We had joy, we had fun...We had seasons in the sun...Glad you guys made yourselves a great hit~!Even though...We didn't get the places...WE GOT A CONSOLATION~!Don't forget in the very beginning...We just wanna get into finals...To perform on that stage...WE DID IT~!Don't forget the time when we're going for preliminary round...We just wanna get over it...To end the pain faster...and

*deep breath...So...Tomorrow's the day...The day we all have not been thinking of...The day we all have not been prepared for...The day we all have not yet met...The day...we all...shall remember... =)I just love the stage...Doing something in front of rows and rows of audience...When everyone have their eyes set upon you, and ears wide opened... Just to watch what are you

It seems a very long time since I write my blog freestyle...Just words...Just expressions...Just feelings...Maybe I spend too much time on the world...And not stopping myself down...to take a look around me...A leaf falling down swiftly side to side until it kisses the ground...A bird flying freely around singing hymns to encourage the saddened...Not a second I spared myself

24 more minutes to E-challenge practice...*sigh....Why do I want to make myself so tired...?The actors coming for practice haven't even reach half of the whole team...What kind of actors are these...?! I don't mean those who came...you guys rock!But those who don't have the passion for the stage...Those who don't have the guts to stand there and perform...Those who have big

A teacher said to his students..."Let say there really is a God who created this world. Now, lets look at the greatest creation by God---Us, and we can see evil, sins, crimes...That means God also created evil itself, and if God created evil that means He Himself have sins as well...This is God who created the world?"At this point, a bright little kid raised his hand before

When I'm less than I should be...When I just can't face the day...When darkness falls around me...and I just can't find my way...When my eyes don't clearly see...and I stumble through it all...You I lean upon, you keep me strong...And you rise me when I fall...You are there when I most need you...You are there so constantly...You come shining through, you always do...You are

You're half a world away, standing next to me.It seems that every day, I'm loosing you almost invisibly.Though you are near, I can't reach that far.Across to where you are and so you stay.Just half a world away....And I would cross the universe for you.What good would it do if you weren't even there?Till you return and until your way is clear.I will be here, not half a world

Finally done with the debate...Even though how tough it is to prepare for this tournament...How stressful it is to go through so much devastating debates...and not forgetting how iniquitous situations we've been through...Like what one of the adjudicator told us..."You are here to learn essentially, winning stays second in your priority."And like what he said...we learnt...we

Ups and downs...And...High and low...And...Right then left...Forward and backward...I've heard someone said...Being busy, is blessed...Because it takes you away from sad memoirs...What a notable sentence...What a phrase...What a dream...Impermanently takes us away...How I wish...and I suppose most will also wish this way...That this provisional getaway can become undeviating...A

I am not here to boast...Cause the one that put the most effort is Him...I am not here to boast...Cause the one that put the most strength is Him...I can do anything through Him who strenghtens me...And I did it... =)I even had a fever before I delivered my speech...So...I prayed and prayed...Prayed that my head will be conscious...They said that I was trembling when I walked

It's been a long time since my last entry...Wow...So much work...So much pressure...Now I really have to stop...and breathe...IN...OUT....Don't know what to write...Actually I do...Don't know where to start...Actually...I really don't know...Oh forget it...I should take my eyes off some things for a while...They're really tiring me out...Next Tuesday...Elocution...Yep...I

Happy Birthday Sista~!Even tho sometimes you really pissed me off...But I will always love you and call you my lovely sista~!Hope you can be more beautiful, pretty, cute, adorable, good-looking...Anything you like...AND of cause...treat me and Joshua betta...XD Save the BEST for the last...And so...Let me be the last to wish you Happy Birthda

When somebody loved me...Everything was beautiful...Every hour spent together...Lives within my heart...And when she was sad....I was there to dry her tears...And when she was happy, so was IWhen she loved me....Through the summer and the fall...We had each other, that was all...Just she and I together...Like it was meant to be...And when she was lonely...I was there to comfort

Exam finally finish...I think my chinese really really dead......Guess what...Yesterday went to KLCC...I won't go there for shopping...and I'm not a science center fan...So...There's only one reason why I would go there...MPO~!A little Mozart evening...3 Mozart famous pieces...~Eine Kline Nachtmusik~Violin Concerto No.3~Symphony No.40 in G-minor (My favourite)Wait for the